First Day of School!

Mixed feelings I guess, when I was going to school. Both, the misery and dreadful thought of school, and the hopeful thought about the new mercies I would experience, from the Lord "morning by morning new mercies I see".

Yesterday was really not what I expected would be. Sigh, I wanted to go out with people and walk walk, and do stuff, rather den bore myself at home. But well, guess it was the Lord's will that I should stay at home and prepare myself. Ppl were just nuaing, sleeping, doing last minute work. Changed my blog template, as u can see. Listen to Christian music, sms-ed ppl. Basically, thats how I spent my last day of my holidays. Oh well, I guess it was good la. Rather den go out and tire myself out and not prepared for the school start.

Reached school, saw many familiar faces and I really sighed. I was back in the "impure world"! So I guess its how much I can live out of what I've learnt, to continue in the things which I had learnt. Ppl were telling corny jokes, crude remarks and vulgar language flying everywhere again. Do I really have to endure 2months of this? Another 5months of school for this yr? Two more secondary school yrs? 4 more yrs till JC? And 6 yrs till army? 9 yrs till I graduate from U to become I free man? Free from the bondange of our country's education system. A system that doesn't have the word "fun" in its vocabulary. Aiya, I abit out of context liaos. I was talking bout the reunion with my school mates and closer contact with the world. Compromise, pride, these temptations are everywhere, if we are not aware, we may slip into the bottomless pit traps. Well, I started out today quite good. I was really commited to stand firm on my stand and to be a living sacrifice for Christ. Not comforming to any standards of the world. I feel that in order to do that I must keep a low profile and talk less, keeping my comments to myself. Well, if I don't I will start disturbing ppl, make funny remarks bout everything, bragging bout everything, argh. I started out the day really good. I was determined to make the difference and be a differnt person from whom I used to be. But unfortunately, I think I drifted into it and I started disturbing people and making weird comments. Then there was the "trying to prove yourself" temptation, and I think I gave in to it abit, but I think I got out of it in the end. I pray for better discipline tml. Hmm, I must do my best to be setting a good testimony for my classmates and friends, and even teachers. Well, I obviously didn't when I relied on copying for my maths again. I am just to lazy to do homework. Thats it. Pray abt that too. I think I have to start studying and working hard now. Cannot stay in my comfort zone for too long. If my grades fall badly, I will suffer lots of persecutions. My testimony won't be good. So pray that I will have the discipline to start studying.

We were walking to the Hwa Chu Junior College for lunch when I saw my friend lagging behind. He was very interested in Christ before. He asked lots of questions and his family was brought to a church. No matter how I encouraged him, he just won't accept Christ. He will say see first. But I know he wants to know alot about Christ.I told him that life is so unpredictable. He agreed but didn't take the step. Well, I used to be praying for him, but in the holidays, I have not really prayed for him nor communicated with him. I saw him lagging behind and I stopped and waited for him, wanting to ask him about accepting the Lord. Before I could speak, he said, "Jeremy, I have something to tell you. I have accepted the Lord already!" Wow! That was like the exactly the same question I was about to ask him, he said that without even me asking. I thank God for guiding him safely back to the Lord. His name is Ernest. Do pray for him that he will grow spiritually and the Lord would use him, now that he had taken the first step of faith. His first question to me was bout speaking in tongues. I was educated by David about speaking in tongues during sunday school before, so I told him what I knew. I am quite worried for him because he says his church people most speak in tongues, when they sing praises or during the message, they will blabber some foreign languages. He said one of the people told him that they learnt the language. But from what I know speaking in tongues is entirely from God and is used only for the purpose of edification and teaching. I am quite worried and fearful because I didn't know that churches like this are still around. Well, I asked him to come to my church. But he asked me to go to his church instead. I am quite confused really about what to do. *sigh*

Think I kana flu liao. Having bad running nose. *sigh* lets see what God has install for me tml.. heh..