hols..

hi all, whee.. what a hectic holiday..

hmm, let me see.. btw the only way i could be bloggin is coz i sneaked into a cybercafe in shanghai to use, becoz of the stupid rule which says that no peeps under 18 allowed?!?! weird.. glad that i can come here, to share what interesting holiday i had.. heh.. thank God for this time.. but anw, tml will be back in singapore, cant wait for church on sunday.. but cant stand training on monday.. blah... its gonna be a very long entry i guess, but still if u are able, bear with me..

7 june: Whee... going for june camp, so met at tiongbahru took the coach.. causeway delayed us for at least 4h! so we were super offcourse for the first day.. the bus sped thru the hills and highway.. was super fast and scary, my heart almost poping out.. yikes.. ok, so upon arrival, settled down in the room. watch a bit of the waterpolo match, but later was banned den went for my first run, which was quite successful.. ran for 40min..guess i was very excited abt this camp.. i great time for revival and fellowship.. had dinner, and the first msg.. i tot it was quite ok, not tt impacting yet.. wait till u hear what happened on tuesday night.. rather boring day i guess, slept at about 11.

8 june: woke up at 6, wanted to watch sunrise badly but it was sooo dark outside, din dare.. i did my devotions and went out again at 630 ba, to the beach.. i think i saw the girls, charissa and gang.. took some pictures, went for a okok run.. and halfway thru sandra told me it was charrisa's bday.. din really get it as i was running , after the run i think they drew on the sand "happy birthday" i think.. rather funny, den wished her happy birthday again.. hah, din really have present so chipped in for the cake at night.. the morning msg was ok.. (not yet, not yet..) the games in the afternoon turned out to be quite rough and messy.. aiya, when we play games intensly, the true rough side of us really show, but i guess its rather natural.. anw, hah, we still won with me and yixuan on the team! bhb =p after tt we played soccer with another church ppl, some accident happen which din turned out very pleasant but well, its over.. ok, so here comes the third message of the camp..
The Image of God? What do we see God as? Its a subject to be pondered over.. We were always told that this God of ours is a gracious loving Father and pleasant, all the good things, of course that is true.. But do we experience and see this God of ours as He is, exalted and glorified.. It is only when we seek Him, He reveals to us who He is.. This image of God forms in mind and our hearts.. It is no longer something people tell us, and know, but something we truly experience and saw.. Isaiah saw the Lord exalted in His glories and he said "Here am I Lord, send me" His life changed after seeing the Lord, I believe mine will, so will yours.. Sis Dawn talked to me after the message becoz i commented the msg by Dr Binney was good.. Indeed it was gd, it was a beginning of a revival.. Someone I least expected talked to me, somehow I was well comforted by her talking to me too.. Thanks! So we went for Charissa's mini birthday surprise party, heh.. Was quite cool and nice, warm fellowship. So I slept after that.

9 june: Woke up at 6 again! 3rd day of camp. Was rather surprised at the amnt of discipline the Lord granted me.. Went out to run and see the sunrise.. Again! This time I saw many people running.. heh.. The morning messages were abt Rock Music and this genre of music.. I hate this music la, so its not really applicable to me, but it was rather gd though.. Today suppose to play some treasure hunt or something, thought it was rather boring.. But it turned out that it rained and we had our own activities like captains ball again! haha.. Quite fun, but i think i tired myself quite alot, in the end din run. Dun wanna tok so much abt games anw, so skip the games part.. At night the message was gd too.. I felt that I really needed to share with someone how I felt and ask him or her to pray for me, but I dunno who to find.. I was rather confused and also greatly moved by the spirit.. In the end, I thought I'll seek Darrell's help. but it wasn't exactly the help I needed.. So I went back after some card games to my room, sigh, i think i was abit sad and depressed that time.. Talked to God about my situation and even my running.. Asked him to reveal His will about running to me, something happened the next day which i dunno whether is a sign..

10 june: Woke up at 630 today, slept rather late yesterday.. I just suddenly din feel like running, and I decided to do my devotions and quite time at the beach instead.. this, I wonder is it a sign? Ok, was quite funny at the beach on the fourth day.. a few of us, including tim, cheryl, yixiang and yann howe wrote our names on the sand and took pictures.. somethings happened, din really remember them anw.. but i tot that time was quite amusing.. After that I somehow read to yixiang they all the devotion, and they started to make fun of me, yikes.. hahas.. Breakfast was as... bad as everyday.. every meal.. the food tastes so... bad. heh.. cannot make it wans.. I dunno why but morning messages dont really impact me as much as night messages.. The games in the afternoon were amusing, i shud say.. not exactly very fun games, rather boring actually, but they were laughable and super funny.. esp pastor and the waterbomb catching.. Dr Binney actually joined in the fun.. wahaha.. Den we played the youths vs adults.. sigh, the youths are just too gd.. hahas.. bhb, i din perform at all, yucks,.. So today was the last message of the camp... sobs.. Really sad, but the last message by Dr Binney was very good, extremly good.. I could feel the Holy Spirit moving in me.. Not only in me but in many other people too! Even Shaun, and Ivan's dad. It really was a miracle indeed. I was just telling Ivan in the morning to pray hard and now, wow! God answers prayers in a very short time sometimes.. Thank God. The Lord burdened me about my running cca.. It has been taking almost 1/3 of my time everyday, which I felt could be left at the Lord's service.. Thank God for sending David to me.. I was just sitting there thinking alot when David sat by me and ask me how I was, I think he could sense that I was troubled.. There is something I had that had to be surrendered to the Lord in order for me to "drink the cup" do His will, and i dont know what it is! I was really confused, Darren also had the same problem I think. So I told David what went thru my mind and he offered good advices.. Thank God, really it felt like God-sent! He told me that running, theres nothing wrong its the purpose of running and the time spent in it.. Am I really running for God or is this running for self glorifying? For the school? For self? Eric Liddel manage to do it, but I had to get my purpose right before I continue running. And the time spent in it could be used to serve God and it might be His will finally. Even though there is a talent from Him, it might not be "the cup" I am suppose to drink from.. Pray for me people, that His will will be revealed.. If I had to quit, I would definitely suffer persecutions from coach friends, but if its God's will I will do it.. And even if I stay, I have to make a stand for God. Sundays are reserved for the Lord and even on other church activities.. I also have to be careful not to spoil the testimony for me as a Christian to the world. So do pray for me.. Anw, after the talk, I din feel like running at all, unless I am really forced to.. IS this His Will? Dunno.. Now training is only 2 or 3 days away and I have not ran for more den 7 days.. yikes.. I am feeling rather scared.. How? Pls pray friends.. After the talk with David, (Thanks anw!)I went down to the beach for night games, very fun.. hahas.. in the end watched stars, sing songs and set up fire.. hahas.. fun sia, slept at 3 or 4 i think..

11: last day of camp, very sad very sad.. but well still have to leave.. the coach left us stranded at the camp site becoz of misunderstandings.. sigh.. anw, thank God for this fruitful camp that I have been praying so much about.. Thank God for interesting people known better.. funny people.. heh..

Conclsion made abt people after the camp:
Darrell. din really get closer at all, dunno why I feel theres a gap between us now, pray abt it
David. Thanks alot for the talk.. think u are someone who can give good advices and a gd counscillor
Darren. Hope that the last message impacted u..and that u found this "thing" that u have to surrender to God..
Ivan. Really happy for your dad.. talk to him more ok?
Joo. ok, still that act cool guy..same as me?take the r/s with the Lord seriously
khoo yixuan. is a nice guy, very daring when playing games.. and "nv say die"type
Charissa. nice and sweet girl, must be more hen when playing games..
Sandra. tok so much...but one of the few i can tok to. heh
Eunice. Very good pianist.. can sight read very wel.. nice girl too..
Cheryl. very funny cheerful.. lightens the mood and likeable girl..
tim. though look tough on outside but inside still quite caring and soft.. heh (no offence)
sis dawn. nice person, care for people arnd
sis joann.. "gong gong calling u" heh.. nice try.. funny cousin-in-law? hahas..
shaun.. actually he's quite a nice guy, but only sometimes in sunday sch make funny comments.. ok, anw,pray that u will grow as a christian since u reassured of your salvation?

argh, really cant wait for sunday.. anw bought many nice stuff for my church friends. and a stuff for FM.. But really detest training.. I think I am going to be scolded for not training.. sigh.. Help Lord! Really want to know if its His will for me to continue running.. Pray for me..

Anw, about my shanghai trip I shall blog next time, I think the cyber cafe owner is eyeing me.. ok.. tc and see you all on sunday! Yeah Sunday! Sigh, monday blues.. =)