scared sia
Sunday, June 20
sigh, feeling really worried and scared abt tml.. running after 7 or 8 days of slacking.. wonder what my coach would say.. whether my testimony as a christian would eb damaged if i were to confess that i had been slacking! or they find out.. argh, i just wanto stop running completely.. just talked to God, but still quite nervous and frightened.. hmm, still need prayers people.. this is gonna be quite a decision, whether to continue, coz it affects my 2 more years or 4 more years in the hwa chong schools.. really it does, and i dont want my dad to find out abt this.. if not i am sure he will ban me from going to church.. yucks, i dread tt day..
but i am still trusting the Lord that if it is His will, everything will go smoothly, and peacefully, even though persecutions are unevitable..
i am ready to sacrifice all the glory and honor that one would recieve if it is really His will, but only if He would just reveal it to me in a way that i could nv deny it is His will!
sianed..
