Blessed Assurance is Jesus!
Thursday, July 22
Hey!
Long time since I've penned my feelings and the condition of my life down. I'm actually faced with many troubles now.. Many worries.. I think it is one of the toughest times of I would be going thru this year... Well, as you all know, my nationals is a part of my worry.. I mean I surely have stress and worries about it.. Then comes the test which I am suppose to have today.. And also the transfer that I am going to apply for VJC next yr.. Ok, it may not seem alot but it is! To me, if I was like before, I would definately be depressed and despair.. But praise God that He had prepared me for these trials even before I "set foot" on any of them. And thru His comforting and encouragement, I've learnt to depend on Him to overcome these obstacles in life.. I'd explain breifly in each case, my problem..
Nationals I think I've said before.. Yupp, and I think it really isn't a big problem now. The race that is most important now to me, is the race which God has set for me to run. The race of this life on earth..
Ok, then comes my test.. Becoz of my competitions I really have no time at all to study. And I was hoping that my chinese teacher would postpone the test because of it. Totally din expect her to be so inflexible and un-understanding.. I dunno la.. But I was quite sick anw, so I though I would get a MC and see the doctor and enquire whether I can run tomorrow. I tot it could be settled but my friend just told me that she is super pissed and might flunk me for the test. Oh well, I was quite shocked la.. Really.. And quite worried.. But the Lord is my light and my salvation, of whom shall I fear? I've learnt to trust the Lord in everyway thru a book which I will explain later. NOw, I am hoping the Lord will help to solve the matter through my head of consortium Mrs Mok who is an understanding teacher and I believed was a Christian when she was a school girl last time..
My VJC transfer has gotten me to worry alot. Because I was very very afraid that my testimony will be affected. I've already learnt that my seniors were talking bad about me when it got leaked out by my friend. I was quite depressed. I know that my school, especially my coach and PE teachers would be questioning me and persecuting me because of it. I sent my application form to two teachers, one Mrs Mok and another to Mrs Kee. I believe that Mrs Kee leaked it out to my class. Now I am very troubled and hoping that the whole matter will not be made a "big fuss" and that my testimony wont be affected. I am praying. But I have this hope that if it is the Lord's will, these things will not stop me and that I should not be afraid of these things. I know I will suffer alot of persecutions, but if it really is His will, then I will not be afraid and be assured!
I've been reading this book called "Heveanly Man" which is a very powerful testimony of how God's power and love was clearly shown in a guy named "Yun"'s life.. I've learnt that whatever trials I have now is to prepare me and refine me for my future ministry and future work. Hence, I know that I have to remain faithful to Him and to sit thru the trials and perservre. I believe, as Yun's testimony showed, that God will make all things good in the end.. I'll talk more about this in future but now I've got to go.. Pls continue to pray for me.. thanks
