2 days at home.

well well well.

i didn't go to school fer two days. yest and today. yest because i not feeling very well. today because i had interview.

well, the interview was okay. it was a 50-50 thing now. and i believe it is best fer the Lord to show me His will to me. okay, the panelist were nice, nice to talk to. i actually felt quite comfortable during the interview. except my mouth abit dried up. the questions were very basic. not much though needed to put in. and all my replies were honest replies. some too honest la. haha. oh well, lets see how it goes and how the Lord wants it to happen.

personally i see this as an escape from tchs. after the mess that i had made in tchs. but the only thing that is holding me back from gng to vjc is my cca, xcountry. yupp. and some ppl in my class and school argh. but if God wills fer me to leave, so will i.

the mess that i found myself in is "mount" up after a long time la. snowball effect, perhaphs u call it. problems after problems heaping. only after two day so absence can see me in loads of troubles and worries. firstly fer camp next monday. i havent even got my consent form. argh. and i totally dun feel like gng because it is those type of super sian and lame camp that we go thru. and honestly, somethings i dun dare to do also. haha. but basically its too sian fer me la. ok this thing i want to skip and i dun dun wanna go. secondly, i gng to have oral test tml. left me in the class. gng to present tml. argh. so difficult. and nervous and anxious. aiya how i wished i didn't have to take it. thirdly i havent hand in the youth award form too. hai~ so many many things. thats not all. its only two days of absence? wow! soo many things fer two days.

we'll see how it goes. i definitely hope that vjc can be true so that i can leave all this worries aside and start anew. but nevertheless let God's will be done and not mine la. hmm.

ok tata =)