my days in arabia

well well well, guess those who have read isobel's kuhn's by searching would probably understand wad the title meant. but if u had not, it meant that 3months of isolation in that sense. haha. yeah, well, u didn't see me in church today did u? hmm, well it probably wasnt the Lord's will that it should happen. thankfully the Lord still protected me. i'll relate what happened today.

i slept real early last nite, was really tired. but my mind was also very heavily burdened with the thought of the problem. it was the last night that the Lord could work that miracle which i believed might have saved my dad. well, but i was clearly seeking fer His will, so i could accept it whatever happened.even so, my mind was still burdened and worried.

i woke up twice in the night. well it was past midnight about 4am or 5am in the morning. so i knew what was done, was done. i could change nothing about it. even if it had not past the midnight, i also could not have done anything to change anything. God was in control, only Him. so the first time i woke up i got on my knees beside the bed and prayed. i was at that time totally not aware whether the Lord has worked the miracle anot. so i got on my knees and prayed fer His will. of course i definitely hoped that the miracle would happen. however i still wanted to sought after His will and at that time i was quite certain that it wasnt what i expected. so i prayed fer the Lord to help me accept whatever He gives and that His will be done, not mine. the second time i woke up, i prayed also.

then i slept til 845. the time i probably would wake up fer church every sunday. so today either i get to go to church or i dun. i told myself. so i prayed again. and walked out of my room. my dad was eating breakfast at the dining table. so i joined him. well, i was quiet and i didn't really think much of what happened. i just sat there and ate my breakfast. den he opened his mouth, "what do u plan to do on sundays?" i understood that it didn't happen. well, of course i was devastated. to me it was quite a blow but i didn't show it. den he repeated the question after i was silent, "what will you be doing on sundays fer the next 3 months"well i was relieved man. the Lord showed that He KNEW even though He didn't work the miracle i asked fer. He softened my dad's heart and what i had to do wasnt what i expected. thank God. i get to keep my faith! even though i was sad, i felt comforted and relieved. i marked on my phone calender. 29aug: bet lost. 3months w/0 church. and found the date that i would be returning to church 28nov- 3months up. that was wad i marked on my phone calender. my dad asked me to do something i would nv think of doing before. something i dislike to do and something different like reading chinese books etc from 9am to 12pm. hmm, i really thank God that He helped me take this circumstance so positively. i didnt bear any grudge. i knew that if it wasnt the Lord's will i had to do these things. the Lord prepared me for it and boy was i prepared. in the past i would have thrown a tantrum and lock myself in the room. now, it was different. totally different. i accepted it as the Lord's will that this happened. even what my dad said comforted me alot. he said, just treat it as God's will fer you to stay at home and expose yourself to more stuff. well i found out that it was true.

after breakfast, i went into prayer again. i prayed fer God's help to take everything postively and i trusted His will that nothing can be wrong. i asked Him to keep my walk with Him steady even though i may not be going to church. not only not to backslide, not only not to stay stagnant but to grow and to learn much more about Him that i never knew. i believed He would. i prayed fer guidance in this 3months and leading. there was a verse which paul said, that he learnt that whatsoever state that he is in, he has learnt to be contented. hmm, contented with what God has given Him. knowing that with what the Lord has provided and given, He is able to use them to mould us to His likeness. i've learnt thru my days that going to church isnt everything. my r/s with God is. and i know that there were so many faithful men of God who were not able to go to church because they were imprisoned. well, i am imprisoned, at home. they were in prison! that doesnt excuse them from seeking the Lord and growing. not going to church doesnt mean that i cannot grow doesnt excuse me from learning more about him and worshiping Him. loving Him that is. well there is sermonaudio, my best pal. and or cause my mp3 player all thanks to blessings like ze gang! but guess i'll really be missing the fellowship part of my christian walk. will be like missing lotsa ppl. sigh i dunno. maybe God wants me to seek Him and not to be distracted so easily. isolation is probably the best way to get my r/s right with Him before He trusts me with ppl. hmm yuupp. wonder what you guys would see me as 3 months later? haha. i wont change much, will i? =p guess maybe wont be so long la. i probably try and come fer some youth activities. if can la that is. pray fer me k? =)

so i'm stuck at home with 3 hour of doing something that i disliked. haha. everyweek! well i guess its training the Lord wants me to go through. tough training. for when i am tried and purified i shall come forth as GOLD! so i think think think think very long liao then realised that i wont wanna read chinese history book. yucks. haha. i though of a very good idea man. probably something the Lord wanted me to pursue in my days in arabia. housework! wahaha. dun be laughing man. though i am a guy but i can do house chores well ok. dun belittle me. =p hmm in a way it lifts some of the burdens my mom has and it satisfies the critirea that has been set fer me.i started off by mopping the floor =) easy la haha i do it like almost everyweek. then i went to turn the socks inside out. that means to flip it so that the outside faces the outside. this way den can wash wad. well, it was super smelly and stinky experience man. now i really thank my mom fer doing it all these years yet i had been unappreciative of it. and i learnt to make sure i dun dirty my socks so much. den i was stuck i didnt know what else i could do. is there so lil housework to do? no wad my mom is working like day in day out so cant be. then i though of the piles of clothes that has not been ironed. well its my job i guess. haha. so off i go. well it was quite relaxing la. i had the fan to myself and i was listening to a sermon called understanding God's will by john vaugh. john vaugh is the author who wrote more precious than gold, a book i am currently reading. well, he preaches very good sermons which are so easily related my life an so close to my heart. i like his sermons. so i was listening to that sermon as i was ironing. well, my parents den came home from the market. i was still ironning. my mom was so super delighted to see my doing household chores man. she just lights up with a super big smile on her face. wow! it warms my heart so see my parents pleased man. well doing housework doensnt only please God, it also pleases my parents and then pleases me to see them happy. i just realised how much i had changed after becoming so involved in church. well, change when i neglected helping my mom in housework. last time i use to do them. now not really because i go to church la, its just that i no longer am motivated to do them. cause i would be spending my time reading christian books. not say christian books are not good. just that i should be considering spending time doing hosuework la. if it delights my parents so be it. then i realised that God wanted me to know how important my family really is. and how much i had neglected them. well busy catching up with my christian family isnt the only thing i should do. my family are people whom God has put in my life fer a special purpose. thank God fer this lesson. i would nv had realised the importance if i hadnt been asked to stay at home. i had decided to help out with household chores not only for sundays but whenever i am able to. yes, but only if i am discipline enough and determined enough to continue doing them. pray fer the Lord's help.

my testimony as a christian can be so significant in the house if i were to put in more love, care and concern in my family. by just doing simple housework, my parents would see the difference in me and what the Lord has done to me. they would be pleased. so i have to be loving even though ppl like my brother is so irritating and to be patient with ppl. to show more care and concern to my family members. ppl who will play an important role in my life which God knows.

i still am praying fer my dad. praying fer God to be merciful towards him because the sermon i heard was quite a serious wan. stern warnings from the Lord to those who reject Him. there comes a time when the Lord will reject those who reject Him. there is a limit either a time limit of wadeva. well, pple who are not yet saved, today is the day of salvation. you never noe when God will reject you for rejecting Him so many times. and when God gives you your way it is just scary. if God still bothers to care for you and ask you to come to Him take heed. if He would just say, let him be and leave you alone. i can assure you that your heart will be so hardened that there might not be a second chance. so what you waiting fer? today is the day of salvation!

hmm so i guess i will be doing housework every sunday. pray fer discipline to do them. pray fer discipline to study and seek God even though there is no one there to watch over. i must be self controlled and seek God and learn more about Him even though there is no one to teach. must take the initiative to seek God and come to Him. God is putting me through a test, a test of whether i will dilligently seek Him even though i have a choice not to. pray fer strength and determination to take this test of faith and do well for God.

yalo, guess i would be missing church anniversary. hai~ unless some miracle happens and it is God will that i can make it. i wont lie to go fer church la. but i would be asking my dad and persuading. well, with my testimony hopefully good, i might be able to convince him to let me go to church sooner or for some occasions. other den that i have to pray that God will give me self control to dilligently seek Him. there is really no one to pull me by the strings and i am set free by my God only to see if I would return to my Owner. missing loads of people too. *sobsob*

well if it is God's will that i should live in "arabia" fer 3 months, so be it! isolation is a step to having closer walk with God. so i'll probably take this opportunity to draw nearer to God. dun worry my friends. just keep me in your prayers. =) take care tatas