Sunday!
Sunday, August 15
hi all again, hmm, its a very short time since i blogged.. hmm, haha.. i am always at my comp so i find lotsa time to blog..
well well, today is the long-awaited sunday again! the morning didn't start off well at all. i believe it was because time was not spent well the night before. well, woke up at 845. that was late. i was suppose to catch the 9am bus if not i will be super late. yah, thats how late i was. quite surprised. because usually i woke up at 7plus. hmmm, dunno. den i was like totally blurred. but thank God i managed to have my breakfast quickly and wash-up and stuff. my dad was "nagging" at me for not completing my work. well, its not a lot, its only 2 test!!! on monday alone. much less, the two subjects which i slacked the most. science and math. i was already quite fan that my day started off like that. den my bro was like super slow and we set off from home at about 9am. i thought we were gng to miss the bus, however thank God we didn't..
well, the bus ride was a very pleasant wan.. why did i say that. hmmm, well, i basically went into deep prayer with my Lord.. yupps, whatever i thought off was poured out to Him. remember the entry before i said how disorganised and how the words i wanted to say couldnt come out? this time it was totally different. i talked to him about many things, prayer request for ppl. and also my spiritual state. hmm, well, i came to this commitment with Him. i was to wake up everymorn at 530 to do my quiet time. i figured out how impt it was to start it with God before the world comes into the picture. it is as someone said yesterday. to take a few short breathes of heaven's air before the polluted air of this earth. another thing is that i was that i figured out that i needed alot to be humble and meek instead of boasting and seek attention. yupp.. and how i must look on Jesus's face and never be distracted. how i should keep my focus.. and many things were thought and sought for guidance like changing into His image, etc. well, i felt the spirit moving during my time of prayer. and i can testify that after that prayer, i felt renewed and refreshed. and i really felt different after that moment of prayer. wow! it was something that changed my day and i thank God for even that short moment in prayer.
hmmm, i figured out that pastor's message was becoming more and more powerful and impactful. thank God for that, the Spirit was moving mightily too. yupp. today's sermon was on shaped to serve Him.. well, many things i had learnt through this sermon. and again the power of the Spirit was tugging at me.. yupp.. i realized how sometimes i am caught up in my busi-ness to help. sometimes self-centered. sometimes, a perfectionist. sometimes, comparing, lotsa times i can identify with what pastor spoke about. hmm, something that spoke to me was that it was an opportunity from God to serve. hence, i believe we shouldn't take these opporutnities for granted. well, in future if i am faced with this chance to serve, and how i wouldn't feel like to do it, i would ask God and i believe He would help me. yupp. and to be great we have to be servants. i liked the verse about Christ not coming to be served by man, but to serve man. if our God is willing to serve us, sinners, why cant we serve out fellow brethrens or even GOD? hmm, something to ponder over. yupp, the rest of the message was good la. pastor challenged the congregation that if we were all to serve each other and God so earnestly and passionately, indeed we could turn Singapore upside down. this reminded me of the book IN HIS STEPS.how this minister actually challenged the church not to do anything until they ask WHAT WOULD JESUS DO and fulfill it. though fictional, it changed the whole city and the world. wow! why aren't we able to take up the challenge? as i was on the way home i passed by this church which showed a big banner about some challenge which touched me. hmm, but i think my memory is failing me cant seem to remember. but i remembered it was a challenge for 40days. hmm, i wonder if BFC is able to turn Singapore upside down, inside out? hmmm...
today was a rather quiet day for me. i didn't feel like joining the rest and talking and stuff. but i rather sit at a corner. something i promised God was also to spent evey minute of free time talking to Him. this is REDEEMING the time.. haha.. yupp, so i sat at a corner and started praying. aiya, i have been quite quiet for the past few days. dunno why. but solitude is good la. hmm. remember isobel kuhn said before in her biography. that solitude was like a phrase we christians would experience when growing and God really speaks to us and grow us during this time. it was titled my years in arabia or something like that in her book.. hmm.. solitude.. actually its quite nice sometimes just sitting back and enjoying the fellowship. looking at ppl, doing their stuff. rather den being so enthu and talkative, in de end talking big and trying to attract attention.. hmmm..
yupp, pray that i will continue to be growing and mature in the Lord..
