thinking, thinking, thinking
Thursday, August 12
hi all, its has not been long since i've posted my last entry. but many things have past and i have learnt many many new things which i never knew. thank the Lord for it.
firstly, let me start with me school work ba. ok, i've just realised school passes soo quickly. hmm, yupp its already the end of the third term of the year. sch has been monotonous. its inevitable. but i had learnt to live through it day by day and somehow it just passes without me really realizing it. in the lessons, we can literally sleep and the teachers are like totally not bothered. but i dun la. i probably laze around and do my own stuff. think abt things. but sometimes when i listen to the teacher i do gain alot from them. haha. but aiya, my time spent in school is very irregular wan. sometimes i listen so attentively, sometimes i just day dream and haha.. ya, aiya, dun wanna talk abt sch liao. talk until i so blurred.. argh..
secondly, i've just recieved an email from VJC and asked me to go for the interview. which means i've been shortlisted. now am really confused because i've been persuaded by my coach to stay in chs to run for our sch. den i also want to leave chs. i dunno. now i think the only thing i can do is to seek God's will in this matter. i shall pray and tarry until i get God's peace and leading to do His will. no matter wad others may say. i noe what i am doing and have a clear conscience before God. dr binney reminded us to test our circumstances. so i believe i have to try and test God further. i will not let Thee go until u bless me.. this is a song i've just liked recently. i will not comfirm that it is the Lord's will until i recieve His peace and leading.. and if it is really the Lord's will, it will be very clear. it will not leave someone half-hearted. so the best option now is to seek the Lord's will with all my heart. and truly experience His leading as we studied in sunday school last week. to experience the spirit's leading. hmm. its going to be exciting and interesting.. =) i am not worried abt it but rather looking foward to encountering with God..
lastly, wahh these two days i've had very very constructive and super good talks with david. hmm, its really wonderful how the Lord clears my doubts so easily. and how i experience His peace when talking to david. i've really learnt alot alot from them. alot that i feel can help my spiritual walk. indeed "He that is spiritual judgeth all things" someone spiritual like david has helped me soo much in my chrisitian maturity and i thank God for it.. i thank the Lord and marvel at His amzing ability to show Himself and explain to me when I seek answers.. i've understood the many implications that can be caused when not considering properly the factors in organizing even a minor event. i've learnt how our focus should not be on the world, no, nothing on the world but on things above. and this: "If anyone comes to Me and does not hate his father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters, yes, and his own life also, he cannot be My disciple.Luke 14:26 further understood the meaning of this verse.. understood how to gain the spirit's leading and guiding as paul and silas were during their second missionary trip, sooo many things i have learnt. i now understand how God can actually mould one person when he truly turns and seek God. pray for me that i wouldn't lose focus.thank God for david man.. =) and those praying for me..
pray for darrell even as he seeks to restore himself, his soul to be used by God to lead the group. we can't delay anymore. pray for the spirit to work mightily. pray for focus to be on God alone.
pray for brothers in fm to love God.not to prepare ourselves for the camp but rather just to fix our eyes on the Lord. that is all we need. how we individualy must seek God before we can be restored
pray for our fm meeting's focus to be on God's word more rather than other activities.
pray for prayer meeting prayers to be more impactful and with the right focus.
sigh, argh, have lit test tml but havent even like start studying. other then blogging i had been talking to david. so no time to.. haha. but i noe God pleases and honors these things that i do because it is done unto Him.. yupp.. leave everyone with this verse:
Colossians 3:2
Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth.
where is our focus? on friends? on cca? on studies? on sports? on ppl? worst still, on fleshly desires? nope, they should be set on the things of God. seek ye first the kingdom of God, then His righteuousness. amen!
