Year 2 Camp
Wednesday, August 25
well well, guess i am back after a good break from the computer sia, hmm well its good la. at least i become not so dependant on the computer. yes, i just came back from a 3day 2night school camp. yupp, i would roughly talk about that camp and certain issues in this entry.
year 2 school camp
well, i went to the camp feeling very negative abt everything la. perhaps only the part thinking that its an opportunity to witness to others abt Christ. other den that, it is plain boring, time-consuming, tiring, lame, stupid camp. haha. but it turned out rather well, except probably a few things la. hmm. the first day we arrived at cdans campsite at bukitbatok. well, its a brand new camp so everything was like super new sia. but we didn't sleep in bunks, we slept in tents on a grassy field in a secluded part of the camp. the only time i was lookng foward to at the camp is the night when i would look at the sky and listen to christian music. yupp, thats wad i call enjoyable. we designed the group flag, group name, group cheer, etc in the morning la. before something turned out real bad. i decided to sneak out with leqiao as it was getting real bored sia. and its the time i would have contact again with the outside world.leqiao was gng fer the interview at vjc and i decided to pei him lo. it all went well, the planing and stuff. until lunchtime when we went to the camp comandant who is ms esther cheong. well, i nv had a bad impression of her la, not wth any teachers. to me, either they are gd, or they are jus like anyother teacher. i thought lq already informed her of everything and we just had to ask permission before leaving. i was shocked, really shocked when she started scolding us, or i mean roaring at us. it was terrible sia. that was the first time i got scolded that badly, or screamed at so so badly. well, lets see, if u were standing 500m away u could probably hear her exact words. imagine me and leqiao standing right infront of her. well, she really kicked a big fuss abt this thing. but i feel she had to do it, even though i didn't think it was nice to me. cause of our safety and stuff. but perhaphs the wrath shouldnt exist la. at first i was super scared that leqiao would miss his chance at the interview since she was unwilling to let him off because she deemed him and me not respecting her by not informing her the correct details. lq told her it was 4, we left at 12. i didn't inform her, but my instructor. she said i was not respecting her as the camp comandant. owell. then lq called vjc to explain to them and stuff, well, i at that time was super super worried liao because i wasnt suppose to leave but i tried sneaking out. now i had no proof to leave, but lq has. so i just sat there and did nothing. leqiao was trying hard to get his way out of the camp. well, to be honest i was really abit worried fer him wan, but abit more fer myself. i knew that i had got myself into serious trouble sia. i promised to take this camp positively and take it as an opportunity to witness however now i am trying to escape. well, i was too rash and didn't seek the Lord's will fer this and in turn, lied because of it. well, ms cheong actually talked to the vjc principal and interview panelist abt this and requested it to be push back because of the camp. hiyah, i actually tot the camp wasnt very important wan, now because she is the camp comandant is wanted to kick a big fuss abt this. she found out that i wasnt suppose to go, and she shouted at me as a liar. ohwell, i was in a daze to actually realised wad was gng on. i just apologised and went back. feelingtotally shocked at what just happened. first time sia. it came down real hard on me. it wasnt even the ppl staring at me feeling, but the abuses that was hurled on me. leqiao after suffering her yelling future longer was allowed to leave during out dinner time only. the interview was pushed backwards. thank God. at least he didn't miss it lo. then i went on with my low elements and high rope elements. well, they werent exactly fantastic. ididnt participate because i was super exhuasted and tired and hungry as i didnt have my lunch, because of that 1h scolding. argh. so it was not of much significance to me.well, i shall comment the instuctors later. they are quite funny pple and nice too. totally not wad i expected la. thank God.i went through the day worrying la. ms cheong said she wasnt done with me yet and wanted to see me at dinner. well, another round of scolding i guess. i prayed la. but i know that i really was wrong and had to be punished. but it wasnt any other punishment, it was something that slapped on me real hard.that whole day and i though abt it fer very very long. spoilt because of that lo. i went to see her at dinner. i was super scared lo, i hesitated fer 30mins lo. until she came out from her dinner. she was there with her stern looking face. it was a devastating experience fer me. well she started off by asking me to explain myself la, why i lied. i said i wanted to accompany lq and help him in the interview. and she was jus hurling as much abusive and shocking words that i had ever heard from a teacher la. she said i cant leave lq? i mean com'on man. i was just accompanying a friend. she said this wasnt friendship when i was helping him,. hai~ it was a sad experience la. i just had to acknowledge wadeva she said about me because i was already super scared lo. so wadeva she said was right, and i was wrong. yupp, sigh. and she wasnt jus talking to me, she was literally roaring and so almost the whole camp was staring at me. i wasnt even like embarrassed by this. i will tell u wad hurt me most. until then i wasnt feeling sad or wad la. i just took it lo the scolding. remarks abt me. i have nothing much to say about those. some examples of her phrases were, "what have u learnt about your sickening behavior and attitude?" wow haha. gross sia. and i dunno why, i just dunno why. out of a sudden she just asked me "you are not a christian are you?" hmm, it gets a lil bit interesting here. well, why would any teacher, she in particular ask me whether i am a christian in the middle of the lecture? i had to think that it was the Lord teaching me something and i had to learn from here. it came down real hard man. though somethings she said wasnt exactly not making any sense, but i was really shocked by her use of words and her language la. perhaps is her way of speaking i dunno.well i said i was a christian. duh. sigh. she really criticised and judge me man. she said that my God wasnt powerful, her God was. and she really kicked a big fuss about this. well, i was thinking why did she have to judge and condemn me like that? it was a lie. she asked if i noe if i was wrong. i said i do. she den said no u dont! wad? haha. weird sia. she is just insisting her way la. den i just say ok lo, i dun. she said i better confess my sin and ask God to forgive me. i told her i did. she said i didnt! wad? haha. i couldnt stand up la. it was a no-no situation. either i get whacked or, i get whacked. whatever i said she would just continue roaring de opposite. so i just backed away and just nodded fer the whole thing. but one thing that really made me break down and weep was when she mentioned about my testimony as a christian? would i be sending ppl to hell because of my lie? can i save ppl and witness to them with this as my testimony. she wasn't convince. neither would there be anyone out there who will be. though it was just a small lie, it was bad enough. it did have to be big to be a sin. a sin is a sin. a sin is what nailed my Savior to the cross. i wept hard man. sigh. but i took everything postively and learnt the lesson God made me learn. lying does not pay sia. as ms cheong said, God found me out. and it wasnt my parents who did that. it was because of my habit to lie that my teacher who find me out in the camp. though it was a hard whack and blow on me, the Lord let me learn that lying really is not want He wants. well, i guess i must really show wad i learnt. thank God after all. lifting this heavy burden from me. well, my instructor is called carmen. she was seriously a very nice person, sometimes kana us bully, but she was caring and kind and helped us through that camp lo. yupp thank God fer an instructor like her. she was there encouraging me when i was down. i met new friends. i bunked in not with my classmates but with my two new friends who were very nice and understanding la louis and mingyou. they also were there encouragin me. comforted sia. the night was quite fun la. those lame songs and claps came back into my memory. what we did in our p5 camp those mega lame clap, macho clap, sissy clap. haha and the banana song, frog song, chicken song haha. fun la. i was like laughing all the way. i like the part where the instructors asked us fer one "ha", den two "ha" den many many "ha"s, i was like laughing all the way. super funny. it was enjoyable. den there was blindsman walking around cdans in the night. after that i cheong to the toliet and had a good bath. before everyone when back to get their stuff, we were prepared. so i enjoyed the toliet fer about 5mins lo. had a gd bath sia. after all the sweat and stuff. thats roughly where the first night ended la. i was soo tired i slept right after going into the tent. though i did listen to some songs. well, had a good sleep that night. yupps. awoke at 530 in the morning fer the trek to another campsite. there was a time delay la. den we had a lil breakfast before breaking camp. we packed up and took out bags.we were to trek to chinese gardens on a 6km route imagine trekking with our 5-10kg bags fer 6km! argh. i carried sling bag lo imagine wad happened to my shoulder. but i manage to carry it after modifications. haha. but it wasnt comfortable at all. i listened to music as we trekked.it was a super long and tiring trek sia. we were slugging our bags and by the end of the whole trek we were totally exhuasted sia. even me! yikes. nothing wad i expected. it wasnt the trek but the loads on our backs.when we reach chinese garden we were welcomed by the teachers with applause. well, i think we deserved that applause and encouragement sia. haha. i totally didnt feel like doing anymore thing fer the rest of the day liao. i was that exhuasted lo. sigh. until we had our outdoor cooking fer lunch. with i was the chef! wahaha. it was quite fun and the first time i saw solid fuel. really. interesting sia. den we were like eating half-cooked or "raw" food until our consortium teachers came with pringles and bottles or drinks. shiok man. haha. but we kept some fer the night in the tent la. hehe. after the meal i felt more energetic la. so i just proceeded to the games lo. today was the adventure race. where we learnt skills and put them to the test. i did knots and lashes. interesting to see the instructor teaching us totally blurred because he didnt noe anything except refering to the booklet. my friend who was in scout did much better lo. haha. den others were sent to learn dragon boating, kayaking, first aid, map orenteering, rafting and outdoor cooking. aaha. we had the adventure race. our first stop, kayaking. i didnt want to get wet lo. so i was rather nervous at first. but kayaking is fun man! haha. super fun. den we went to another station to build the tent blindfolded.den the next station was outdoor cooking we had to cook 4 eggs with 2 onions, 2 oranges, one started, 3 match sticks and charcoal. man it was tough to start the fire. and we didnt have spoon or knife. so we use the stones on the floor to dig the contents out of the oranges and onion. and empty the egg into them to cook. we only mange to cook one sia. haha. oh well but it was a good experience. den we went to the first aid station. den the rafting wan. well our knots and lashing skills were put to the test when we were asked to make a raft with rubber floats and sticks. haha,. we did well alright. only ours partly sink the rest of the groups sank fully sia. i actually believed my instuctor when she said that all had to go in. as in try once. so i decided if we have to, why not go first. so the first 4 was my louis mingyou and junjie. we took one step in and we got totally wet sia. argh. since we were all wet we decided to have fun. boy, did we have lotsa fun in that dirty lake. we took ages to get back on shore after paddling out. because we playing like mad. until our instuctors called us bad. everyone there was staring at us lo. haha. then after we reached shored they told us no more time. gosh sia. i wasted my time in the water and getting wet! grrr.. thanks lo instructors. provide reliable info. den we went dragon boating. the boat super big and heavy different from kayak. but we had this canoeist, louis who was super good lo. haha. we had fun dragon boating too before pleading with carmen to allow us to go fer the bath early. we were the first group sia. thank God we had two good baths sia. haha. nothing much after that. not looking foward to camp fire. so sian. i hate cheers sia. den it rained and we were stuck in the tents stuffy and warm. well campfire was cancelled. yeah! but we still had to cheer when the rain stop. cant imagine myself seeing some of the ppl so enthu and cheering their hearts out. well, i was concentrating on whacking the mosquitos. haha. den we had green bean soup fer supper before heading back to tent early sia. wah, shiok. good sleep again. except fer no bed. well, i've learnt not to be so stupid to play throughout the whole night and get my next day upset because of this. haha experienced camper. so i had good sleeps, good bath, wad more can i expect? nice la. the camp was good. i thank God lo, really. fer helping me through blessing me and protecting me. and teaching me invaluable lessons. well it turned out real good man. thank the Lord fer His grace poured on me thru this camp. though the day always starts not as well, but it always ends well if we should trust in Him. sometimes its makes me so glad and comforted that no matter where we are on this earth we always have God. someone who will always be with us no matter how far we are away from civalisation.praise God fer being omnipresent. haha. and always being there fer us. well, i dun exactly miss camp but the experience was good la. hmm, thank God.
the deal with my dad is still on. i am still praying hard. yupp, hope u are too. i am really trusting the Lord to work. though there arent signs showing any progress. but would it really be so dramatic that on the last day it happen? or will God even make it happen? is it His will? hai~ though i really dunno, i am trusting His will. but how can i trust when i am to stop believing what i believe?erm, haha, i dunno. "i just keep trustin my Lord, He will never fail, i just keep trusting my Lord...." just keep trusting just keep trusting! thats all the Lord require. train me into a trusting child even to the last second. i will trust.
well, my phone bill exploded sia. 1500++ smses last month. well, its erm erm erm, gross sia. disgustingly high. well, i misuse liao la. i scared this month gonna explode too. sigh. so friends, dun sms me now k? unless really really necessary or impt. i am gonna abstain from using the phone. it shall not govern my life sia. well, wadeva la. i am just controlling lo. i miscalculated too lo. i tot 50smses per day would be just nice. how did i calculate just nice ah? if i were to send 50 per day. hmm abit werid sia. cant be la. ohwell, just control my usage la. and dajia, dun sms me k? thanx.
well if u can tahan until now, u are good sia. thanx fer suscribing to jem's super super long jounal. u've just become a very good reader and patient person. wahaha. yupp, thanks fer reading man. ntie.
