more precious than gold
Wednesday, September 1
the book that i have been reading for quite sometime "more precious than gold" by john vaughn
it tells of how God took this unbroken supposedly not usable couple john and brenda and broke them down through a fiery trial. how God used the trials to actually change their lives and mould them into His image. see the verse of the week. we shall eventually come forth as gold after perservering in our testings. going to read finish this book soon. read halfway already begins to touch my heart le. well it is not like any other books that i have read. well it touches me in a very special way so to say. it is a totally different testimony in a totally different circumstance. and it does relate to me how we should treat a trial what our attitude to it should be how we can put God as our focus and overcome whatever comes our way as easily as possible thank God for this book and john vaughn's sermons. haha
it makes me think really how comfortable my life is now. it makes me think whether i am ready for the BIG test that God is going to put me through soon when He has prepared me enough for it. i wonder whether i am able to stand up like paul to rejoice and be contented in whatsoever state i am in. life is going so well so smoothly fer me and i really can not imagine what i would be like if i am put thru trials like when things or ppl close to my heart gets taken away. how would i actually react to what God has done? would i still trust that He is in control or would i turn my back against Him? would i continue to be rejoicing to be partakers of Christ's sufferuing or would i become angry and abusive? this is the point where i would choose which path to take and it is where God gives us the freedom of choice as He has given Adam with. "do not undo in the darkness what you have done in the light" this is something i've read in the book. it is very meaningful and it would be my prayer. what i've commited myself now and what i've learn and understood now shouldnt be undone when times of difficulty comes. it should remain. but continue thou in the things thou has learnt. that is wad that means. God is preparing me i feel and teaching me these things. i can sense that something big is going to come a BIG test is awaiting me. i dunno. but i definitely wont want to find myself resting in comfort but i would rather be suffering for Christ den living in comfort. haha hope it doesnt get too dry down here. wait till that test comes and you'll see that God indeed prepares His child for the battle before sending them to the battlefield.
hmm i want to be faithful ! yupp i want to. well my christian walk hasnt stopped and it definitely hasnt backslidden even though i am barred from church. no way am i gonna let this seperate me from seeking my God. as daniel said the relationship takes only God and myself. being barred from church doesnt mean a seperation from God doesnt mean stop seeking God. there is no excuse to that. rather it is because of the isolation that drives me to seek God more. it is because of me missing the Lord that makes me pant after my God as the deer panteth for the water brooks. well this 3 months proved to be filled with exciting and interesting discoveries. priceless lessons to be taught to me by God Himself and me actually taking the initiative to seek Him even though nothing is there to push me to do so. so it really needs alot of self-control and determination plus discipline. well God is become more and more real in my life. i feel and see the change in me man. i know that God is working and He never stops to work. but sometimes i do get distracted. well about many things some personal stuff but i get over them quite easily with God's help but they still do come back and "taunt" me. well its time i lay them aside to run the good race. and sometimes u just noe that you want your way more than you want God's way. and sometimes i'll love myself more than i love God. well it is tempting to want our way more than God's because it is so appealing to the flesh. but i do get over them too by God's grace and help. thank God for being there man.
even though all seems to go well i do have things which i struggle in my life. some are personal stuff too heh. some are just struggles to set aside time to study God's word and to pray. struggles to put God first before every decision. struggles to be loving to everyone around me, coz sometimes i do get so irritated. struggles to do the right thing instead of doing the wrong which seems to appealing, like lying. well some i do get over some i often stumble. neverthelss i am praying to get over them soon and gain the victory over them.
well tml's sch again back to normal. nvm la only 2 more days. still can tahan! haha. anw gtg liao nites. tata ciaos
