stressed !

hey guys,

figured out that i could blog a little, not too long since i was at the comp doing my assignment. well, guess this is the time of the year when all the stress and everything starts heaping onto us. the exams are coming so soon and its drawing near day by day. and the amount of stress that mounts up, sigh. guess thats the result of slacking for the whole year and pia-ing as much as you can for the final year. whoa, some of my friends got 3 subjects exempted out of the 4 that will be tested. and the one they missed was english! oh man, i regretted so much not putting more effort during the whole year. i used to think the last minute pia method could work, it did work for me last year and well. however this year, i guess not. so many concepts, lessons i missed due to not focusing during lesson time. hai~ chinese have 2A and 2B full of words to study, plus 100 chengyu zao ju. maths so many concepts i need to understand since i've missed out so many. science, do i even listen during lessons? argh so much to revise. english though no need to study but, sigh the stress is killing me mann. somemore the sch has to to put so high expectations on us that make me wanna put a even higher expectation on myself. and how the competitiveness of the school's boys are showing. and i might as well be one of them, vieing to be my best. well, there is a thin line between being competant in our studies for God and doing it because we want to be one of the top and i believe i has just crossed the line. well, its tough esp when the enviroment is so competitive. how i long that i can glorify God through my studies, yet neglecting Him when i study would prove to be meaningles if i was to do it for Him. and doing it for Him and doing it for myself is totally differnt. so tempting are those scholarships, speacial awards, special courses that are in stall for those who do well. and i often hope to get them. wishful thinking. nahh, if God wills i will get them. but if i was only to do well just to aim for that. then God forbid that i should do such a thing. well there's really alot that i have to catch up and study.

guess many out there are in the same situation as me. so stressed up and just cant focus right? hope that we can be faithful to God even in our studies. never leave him out of the picture. never neglect Him because of our studies. remember who we are doing it for? if He is not remembered, how can we be doing it of Himn right? learn to depend on God for knowledge and wisdom. know that God holds our future in His wonderful hands and He is in control. seek ye first the kingdom of God then His righteousnes, and all these things shall be added unto you! remember to seek the Lord first in every circumstances. even though how stress and how tight our schedule is, never leave time for God out. remember that God honors those who honors Him. rite? so be patient and "reng" there ok. soon it'll be camp! thats worth looking out for! =)

ps: remember to pray for all the youths in their exams! God bless your heart.