Post-Exams Period

Hello.

Well just got back all my results. What I can say is "thank God!" for all the blessings. Though I really wasnt very boastful abt it. There was pride in me and I really need to break it. What humans count as gain, I must learn to count as loss. And what they count as loss I count as gain. Yes, that is what I must learn to live it out. So ultimately good results doesnt always mean that it is good. I mean yes, it does glorify God and I do my best to give Him the glory. However I must learn to accept that even though, if I happen not to do well. I have to learn to be contented and rejoice in whatever circumstances. And learn to count these "gains" as losses for the Lord. Something I feel really impt in my life now is to "die" to the flesh, and "die" to the world. The things that give our flesh pleasure, that feed it and allow it to develop in our bodies are the things of the world. If we allow ourselves to indulge in them. Not only wil our spirit stop growing, we will be walking a downwards path. The pleasure that the world gives, appeals alot to our flesh and subconciouly we feed them to our flesh. Hence causing the appetite to grow. That is why I feel that I have to learn to "die" to all these, to live these phrase out "but O I long to soar, far from the sphere of mortal joy, and learn to love Thee more" die to these pleasures and desires of our flesh. Stop feeding them and they will cease to exist.

Have been re-reading Isobel's By Searching again. Very inspiring and encouraging book to read. It shows alot of what we chrsitians go through. When we lose our faith and content to walk in the Misty Flats, how she climbed out of it into the Highway. Where she enjoyed the sweetness and joys of the Highway. Experiencing God work in very special ways, providing constantly without fail, gives joy in all circumstances. Well, I see one truly devoted Christian seeking God and it encourages me. Somehow motivating me to learn to seek God with all my heart, to go on searching! And taste God's sweetness every single day. Have yet to venture into her second and third book, Nests Above the Abyss and In the Arena. Excited though. But I think I will content myself with re-reading the first part first.

Anyway, just had my first training yest. New season for Cross-Country just started. It's going to be tough, the training and all. What is even more is to maintain my testimony as a Christian, shining as light, in an envioremnt where self-glorification comes first, where people seek to gain attention in everything they do by doing sometimes something stupid. Oh well, its really going to be stressful. But O, I hope that I would be faithful to even reach out to the most un-reachable people. To continue to take a firm stand as a christian, to give God glory in my races and running, and to learn to love these dear souls and help them make peace with God(peacemakers). Pray for me. Its really stressful, even thinking of it. All the training I will be going through. I dread all of them. But if it is the will of the Lord that I continue to run for Him, let me be faithful in His will. Until He leads elsewhere, I hope that I would not take things into my own hands but let Him take the matter our of my hand.

Ok, really starting to miss church though. So tempting to compromise to come to chruch. So many opportunities to sneak in, but thank God for the conviction of the Spirit, the promise I made to God not to lie. Well its only 1 more month. Pray for me to be walking closely with God during this period k? It is tempting really, to do nothing and idle. But to be motivated to continue seeking God requires alot of strength from God and who knows what your prayers can do to me yea?

Take care ppl. I pray that you have still been walking closely to God even so. Leave a tagg if you are free k. Tatas.