first day of school

wow! Its school already. Well, hols have been super fruitful and fulfilling for me. To think I actually thought that this holiday was quite long leh. Goodness. Thats so, not me! Oh wells. BUt ok. Today returned to school. Not much feelings about it. AS in not feeling anxious, nor really excited, just same same. Cause training every day has made waking up early a norm. And going back to school might just be subsitute for it. So, yeah.

Started my day supposedly quite well. I dunno. I was suppose to wake up at 5 to do my quiet time. But obviously, I didnt because I errr, slept till 540 liddat. I woke up just in time to leave house. I manage to read a short passage of scripture before being forced to stand on a 30min bus all the way. So, I tried to spend that time praying. Hmmm. It was a rather, not very satisfatory quiet time with my Lord. But I thank Him He gave me 20 mins or time just before school to rest all my cares in Him, and committed my day to Him. Hmm. I think I started off quite well. Really thank God. But I realised that as the day went by, my eyes became weary and turned away from God. Ha, wait to what extend. No, I don't mean doing worldly things, involving myself with crude jokes, dirty talk. BUt its just that Ive made a few commitments to God, and I didnt manage to keep them.

Here's a few of my resolution.

1. Study hard- no more copying or work.
2. Attentive in class- no more sms-ing during lessons
3. To reflect Christ- no more "acting seh" (ok, this is the one i failed)

So, ya. And I think I kinda failed God today. Hmm, I dunno. A little depressed now though. But I think Im looking foward to tomorrow to ask God for another chance. REally seek to restore my soul and to press on! So, pray for me tomorrow. That I may be pleasing God in all I do, say and think. And I really think that starting the day right with God is very important, if not your day will just go hay-wired if the focus at the start is not God. Spend solid, quiet time just with God alone and see how God will bless you through the day.

Anyway school seems daunting and scary. The workload has just increased from a light weight of 5kg to 30kg. Wonder how I am going to survive sec 3. Lessons end most days at 4pm. Goodness. And to think I have training after that. Woah. It really appears to be a nightmare. But by the Lord's grace I am sure to pull through this year. Surely as Colossians 3:23 suggests. And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men. May we seek to glorify God even in our vocations!