Long time since I posted. Hehhs. Well, I'm back! ((: Rly life has been so busy and stressful. And I'm simply hanging in there, day after day, by God's strength. If not, I can say, that at many times I would almost break down.

Well, I think this year is rly big big difference from last year. Just one yr difference, but so much changed. Sciences spilt into 3 subjects. And additional Bicultural programme. So lessons had to end at 4pm. Its really a super long day in school. And by the time it ends, I'm burnt out. To be honest, I may not have survived if I hadnt taken a few days off training just to rest and recover. Imagine everyday reaching home at 7 or 8pm. That should be the time I will reach home daily, if I didnt take some days off my training, which has been used pretty well for recovering and resting. But even so, I can feel the weariness and fatigue catching up wth me every now and then. But I thank the Lord because He rly helps even in little things. Whenever I'm tired, I will just pray for God to help me rest in Him, and immediately I would fall asleep. I mean, I usually take quite some time before dozing off. But these days, rly I had many many quality "rests" whenever I ask Him for it. Truly, He blesses in many ways.

I should say I'm starting to adapt and fit into the new sch system. The syllabus became more tough and demanding. But I think, though its still stressful and difficult to grasp everything that the teachers teach, but I'm really casting all these worries to the Lord. Well, I'm not exactly very bothered by IT now. I just try to pay attention to whatever the teacher teaches in class, and leave the revision to the later part. Its quite interesting how I suddenly became so super attentive in class. Hehhs, I think I'm doing pretty well in kping my resolution. Though I still have to work on the homework part. I rly pay close attention to every single lesson! Woah. No more sms-ing, no more slacking, but only study hard, and I mean rly rly hard. Its only the start of the yr, but I'm quite scared that I'll burn out soon. But I think one or two verses that I can cling unto are Matthew 6:33-34. "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." Indeed, tomorrow will worry about its own things, and truly the day has its own share of troubles. So, lets draw grace day by day from the Lord!

Well. I've embarked on the bible-in-a-year challenge! Hahaha. I started on 16 January, so to catch up with all that I missed reading before, I had to work extra hard by reading more every day. I think its more demanding. Because sometimes I read like 2 or 3 chapters and time doesnt allow me to review all that is being taught in these 2 to 3 chapters. So I barely grasp the gist of these chapters. However, last time when I read God's word. Its book by book, and a chapter a day. And I manage to dig out a few "gold nuggets". But as I went along reading, day by day, I think instead of searching for these "nuggets" of truths, I find them as I go along. As in, its not a tedious process, nor a stressful one, in which we have to search high and low for these truths, but I believe God reveals them to those who will seek. Remember, God honors! I had this very strange thought today. It made me think. Because I'm reading Matthew in the morning and Genesis in the night. So I was thinking whether when we read, we unknowingly read them as stories. But sometimes I find myself missing the pt, and missing the whole idea that these incidents actually happened, exactly, a few thousand years ago!! Do we ever think of these miracles that Jesus performed as "stories" unknowingly? I realised that unless we begin to see them, and picture them, as incidents that really took place, we will not be awed by them. Dont be surprised to see Jesus feed the 5 thousand with a few pieces of bread and fishes. I mean, yes, we have heard of these incidents. But to really be awed and be amazed of God's power to work, we have to believe and respond in faith. Do we believe that these things can rly happen now? Is parting the Red Sea just a myth? Can Jesus really walk on water? Considering we already magnify God for working little miracles in our lives, how much more awe and adoration would we give to God if we see Him work miracles He worked in the past! Its good to think and respond to God's word. Do we really believe what we are reading? Or is it just doing what we are suppose to do each morning? Thats when responding with faith, in prayer, comes in. I believe God's word will really become living, and powerful, if we consider everything in it to really be the truth and nothing else.

Indeed, I find rest and a place to renew my strength each morning before God. It has become a necessity for my day to go on. Without it, my day will just not make sense. I have to thank Him for kping me awake every morning. And when we think humanly that by taking less rest, I become more tired. But instead, I've realised that even my physical strength is renewed. Its against human logic and I dont believe I can ever be more refreshed. God honors those who honor Him! I think everyday's quiet time shouldnt be simply taken as a routine, to do, over and over again. But I rather look at it as a new and exciting experience with God every day! Its like waking up in the morning to meet a Person whom you love dearly. Why would it ever be a routine? Come to think of it, I think we should wake up thinking of Him! I wonder who rly feels excited to meet God daily. Sadly I havent really been exactly excited. But its more of anticipation. Hopefully we can all not only look forward, but become excited to meet God everyday!

I wonder hows everyone doing now, after 3 weeks in school/ at work? Have we been victorious soldiers for Christ, or defeated ones? I see the battle raging furiously in the spiritual realms. I see so many pits and traps that the devil has planned to ensnare christians who are not watchful. We must never let our guard down, don't allow the devil to find us sleeping in our work! My prayer is that every christian would simply FIX their eyes on the Savior, and turn away from the shadows of lives, the duling effect of the world. James 4:7 "Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you." And let us not grow weary and lose focus of our purpose and mission here! Kp ourselves in check, ready, and purfied vessels for God to use! Don't be worn out in our own trouble to realise that God wants us to grow out of our own concerns and start reaching out! Many times I feel that I struggle to keep myself in perfect condition, I keep struggling and struggling. But I think that the devil wishes that we would do that, and leave God's work aside. So christian brothers and sisters, take arm and press onward! Dont look to the left, nor the right, neither should we face the rear. But let us fill the gaps and start to work and live for Christ! May the Spirit of God empower us to be faithful and good ministers for Him!