HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!

Haa though its abit late. But wells, its only the 3rd day! Ahh so sian to blog last few days, esp when its CNY. But today, hmmm, while everyone is at sch, HAHAHA im at home! Okay. I just went for training and came back so, here I am bloggin. I hope to keep it short and sweet though. ((:

KAy. First up! I'll talk about my Chinese New Year. Well, this yr ah really leh, quite different frm past yrs. This yr seemed so quiet and lacked the festive mood. Haa. I used to think CNY is a time where it is so lively and so bubbly and all, but this yr really was a totally different experience. And somemore this yr only visited my grandparent's house from both sides, and my aunt's house. Nothing much. Not like last year where we visited most of my dad's friends and all, quite shiok. But oh wells. The second day was a quiet wan. Stayed at home and slacked a bit. Woke up at 10 plus 11. Woah so late. Wait. First day first.. Haa. Visitation to my dad's side starts at abt 11am. Hmmm actually we are closer to our mother's sides relatives. So I werent too excited abt meeting my dad's side's relatives. OH did I mention that I thought my grandmother was cute. Hahaha. Actually quite leh, I feel that sometimes when the reach a certain age, we begin to think and act like children. ITs quite true. Hmmmm. But anywaays okay, Im quite burdened for my dad's side relatives. Sometimes I would just stare at the idols placed on the altar, which my grandma always worships and prays to, and I'll sing "Break Down the High Place" ha. OH did I mentioned how I was challenged by Sis Dolly's presentation on the mission work in China? When I saw how she spoke about how people still worshipped those idols, my heart truly went out to them. Really really so sad. Why do people worship idols? Why worship the creature and not the creator? The memory verse, Daniel 3:17-18 If that is the case, our God whom we serve will be able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and He will deliver us from your hands O King. But if not, let it be known to you that we would not serve your gods, nor would we worship the gold image which you have set up. Even the verse mentioned in Sis CC's blog.

Romans 1:20-25

"20For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even His eternal power and Godhead, so that they are without excuse, 21because, although they knew God, they did not glorify Him as God, nor were thankful, but became futile in their thoughts, and their foolish hearts were darkened. 22Professing to be wise, they became fools, 23and changed the glory of the incorruptible God into an image made like corruptible man--and birds and four-footed animals and creeping things.

24Therefore God also gave them up to uncleanness, in the lusts of their hearts, to dishonor their bodies among themselves, 25who exchanged the truth of God for the lie, and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever. Amen."

I sometimes really really feel so burdened for these people who really miss to see the truth. And back to my grandmother. I really dun know how she can be reached out to. Sometimes I feel its so impossible. But with God, all things indeed are possible. She speaks cantonese. Ha I dun. And she does not have very good hearing. And furthermore, I hardly talk to her. Well. Iam burdened and Im praying for her. I even thought of leaving bible verses, or even tracts in the house and maybe she will stumble upon them. I dunnoo.. Lets hope and pray that God will work. I believe He will answer if I ask in faith and am sincere. And my dad's siblings not one of them saved. Really really feel so burdened. Its almost impossible. But really I can see and trust how God can work miracles and show Himself strong!

Then we headed to my mother's side relatives. OH I'm so much closer to my mom's side then my dad's side. And esp my grandfather. Ha, I just read charissa's blog and I realised that like her grandma who took care of her when she was young, my grandad was the one who took care of me when I was young right up till primary sch! And my parents would just leave me in his house when they go to work. And I really love him alot too. Yes, I know he does come to church, but Im still burdened for him. Pls pray. Because I understand from him that he dont believe in some things that the bible teaches. Aiya, I still dunno what I should feel abt it. I know i shouldnt doubt and judge. BUt I really hope that he can be reassured of his salvation, and truly learn to read the bible and pray. I just realised that through CNY, or rather, when I start thinking of my relatives I can be so burdened for so many so many people. If you think that we must start to reach out, why not start with our very own family first! There truly are so many to reach out to. I manage to have a little chat with my uncle Chee Keen. I wanted to gain an insight to the missionary work over at China, wanted to ask him. Ha but unfortunately didnt manage to. Just had a lil chat. OH, and his son, Noah is so super cute! AHhh, oh wells. God has truly blessed them with a bubbly son. Actually thru some means, I gained a deeper insight to how my uncle grown to become who he is now. I realised that he was very very devoted when he was young. I heard that he locked himself in his room for hours to spend time with God. And I truly believe, from the testimony of his live, that to those who would seek God, God will reveal Himself to. I learn that also in the bio of Watchman Nee's life. (: Okay quite enough for the first day.

Haa. Now the second day was really abit the slack and quiet. Spend the morning browsing through the channels after a very long time of "not watching tv" due to busy schedule. Woke up super late, at abt 11am. Then the whole afternoon was kinda slacky too. And thank God I started on the bio of Watchman Nee and found it rather interesting. It really encouraged me. Im like only at the fourth chapter and it has already spoken lots to me.Then had a kinda reunion dinner with my aunts and their family. Had quite a fun time, or rather, amusing time with my cousins. The younger cousins who are really quite fun to be wth.

I believe now is the time when lerthagicity sets in. I've longed to ask this question. How are you keeping on your committals to God? And take time to really think, search and examine ourselves. Be true and honest. I think now is really the time when those who depended on grace that was bestowed in the camp and holidays really show from those who learn to draw grace from God, daily. We can never depend on the grace, and the experiences felt in the holidays and expect our walk with God to be steady all the way. We must, however draw grace from Him daily. For it is sufficient for the day. I think God knows who is able to perservre and press on, and who will give up and be defeated. Now is really not the time to let go. Dont wait and expect for a revival. I feel that walking steadily daily with God, IS the most important thing to do. If we slip back to our usual life, and appear not to be any different from what and how we used to be like, I think its time to start to think back on the "promises" we've made to God. For me, I found myself almost slipping and falling into a pit without knowing and I'm really trustin on God's grace to lift me up now. I feel that Im beginning to do things more for man than for the God, and I believe we so often find ourselves vulnearable to that. Love for God, must be above everything and anything. If we find ourselves prone to do things for the sake of man, we must reflect on how much we really love God. Actually one simple question that if we ask and answer truthfully to ourselves we will know whether we are doing things for man or for God. If God calls us to serve in a place where no one will know or will see what would be our reaction to it? May our love for Christ be above all things, and may it prevail!

I find myself waking up later and later every morn. From 5am to now sometimes 530. I feel that Im placing less importance on my quiet time and reading and praying sometimes for the sake of doing so. This should not be so. I sometimes even find myself trying to please God and impress Him by doing my quiet time faithfully. Well. I think this is all wrong. The time spent with God daily has to be really be spent with a heart earnest and yearning to seek God. It has to be given precedence over anything else, even my slumber. And it is done because we truly depend on it, not because we want to show God that we are faithful in doing so. And I think sloppiness and how my christian walk become to feel lerthagic all starts here. When the yearning for GOd's Word and communicating with Him dies down, so do our fervour and love. And vice-versa. I feel. But, I think God has been merciful to me. He never left me, only I left Him for things that will not last. So He had been ever-faithfully waiting for me to return with a repentful heart. I pray that He will help me to forget the things behind, and continue to press on and upwards!

I've been reading the bio of Watchman Nee. Really encouraging. Will share next time!