Term 2 Week 1

I'm on MC today. Thats, good I guess. If God has willed, I hope that this long rest through the easter weekend will refresh me, and recharge me of my spiritual lethargicity and hopefully keep me pressing on. Well, I'm on MC because of 3 reasons. Firstly, I dread Slim's lesson and how I wish I could take a break from school for a longer time, today was the best time- long rest. Secondly, I'm having a little flu. The bug has been constanly bugging me and refuse to go away, argh. Pray for me kay? Race day is coming and I really hope that the bug may go away if not I'm really going to suffer in my performance. And lastly, because I'm suppose to do some medical checkup for OBS however, when I got there, realised that Polys don't do checkups. So I think I fulfilled the first two objectives. Flu's coming on and off, just pray and hopefully it wont bug me leh.

This week has been not very good. Well, I really need to be focused on the right priorities and simply turn my eyes on Jesus. Turn my eyes away from worthless things, revive me in your way. Ps 119:37. Yahh, have been kinda distracted. From many many things, some new some old. I remembered one day I was reading Psalms 4, I was quite stunned to see this verse:
"O ye sons of men, how long will ye turn my glory into shame? how long will ye love vanity, and seek after leasing? Selah. " Indeed, how long will we turn our Lord's glory into shame and how long will we continue to love vainity, things of this world and seek after falsehood? I was struck and convicted, and prayed Ps119:37 to God. Indeed, how I wish to soar above the sphere of mortal joy and learn to love God as He deserves. I realised how vulnearable I am to do my own will and walk in my own thoughts and desires. And I really wish and seek to refresh myself in Him through this break. However, there were many things I've learn from studying Psalms that I want to share. I pray that it may be my constant mediation so that I can hide His word in my heart and not sin against Him.

I messed up my workout on tuesday, and I know why. I need to know that I am nothing without Him, for only by His grace, I am who I am. I have no strength, I am no speedy guy, nor powerful in stamina or endurance. I simply have God, and He has made me successful in what I do. I owe everything I have to Him, and if I turn myself against Him and walk in my own way, He will not bless me and I cannot perform. That was what happened this tuesday. I didnt come clean before God and allow Him to use me, I was with sin and hence I couldn't even find strength to complete the workout. That's the only time I messed up my workout la.

[entry in the morn]