Post-nationals period

I havent really found time to blog, and its a good thing that I havent been depending and spending alot of my time on blogging rather to concentrate and do the more important stuff. It seems that the next few weeks will be so busy, so packed, and extremely stressful. Nationals came and left quickly, and the effects of training and less concentration on my studies has become evident and I realised I really have lots to catch up before the test week arrives. Thankfully, there will be 4 tests per week only. But the intensity of each test in greatly increased, due to the decrease in quantity. Meaning- more stressful. There's much to catch up, much to work hard and time to change from a lackadasical attitude towards studies to a hardworking and dilligent scholar for Jesus. Well, I hope you will include me into the "prayer list" that we've been encouraged to have, for the next few weeks. Do drop yours on the tagboard, or even comments.

Interestingly, reflecting and looking back from times during the holidays in december, and how I was from the start of the year, I realised how much I've changed. Its good to notice change, espeically if its for the better. There are things changed for the better, things that have become abit worse or lousier. But all in all, I've been learning as I go along, and hopefully piece together the good points and pray to be purged from the bad points. One significant change, in attitude and actions, is definitely towards my studies. I wonder how I was able to go through lower secondary with such slack attitude and come out to perform quite well. But now despite not performing as well, I think whats more important is that I'm putting in 100% in all that I do for my studies, and I can be confident hence. There are also many things that used to be a distraction to me, that thankfully, by my Lord's grace has been miraculously removed from my sight from my thoughts. No longer do I suffer from these distractions as a hinderance to my service to God, but I feel that I am able to strive to do more as my eyes no longer are fixed on these distractions, but on Jesus. However, I feel that because of many things happening, and many thoughts and ideas-changing, I've grown to becoming less sensitive and passionate to God. I still love my God, as much as I used to. But just that I no longer see myself "following blindly" but rather taking time to consider first. I don't know if this is for better, or for worse. Is blind faith better than intelligent-less-faith? But whatsoever, I cannot deny that I need to be revived, and my the flame in my heart needs to be rekindled. To taste the sweetness, and goodness of close fellowship with God once again. If I were to continue to further think on this line, I would find myself to filled with grief that I havent been like Psalmist David, thirsting and seeking after God with all my heart, havent been like zealot apostle Paul, havent been able to completely fulfill what God commands: to love thy God with all thy heart, mind, soul and strength. Yeah, I think its easy to brush aside, so that we do not have to torment ourselves with the thought that we AREN'T living as what God has called us to be. But, take time to think la. Whether we have been walking worthy of the calling in which we have been called (Ephesians 4). Don't brush it aside. Stop stop stop, and think!

So, after Nationals, many things I've longed to do. But first thing's first, to study hard and catch up. Then, I think I'll be going to start to train soon la, again. Either for track, or if I skip it, next ear's national. But of course this wouldnt take priority now. I've gotta watch my diet, to keep on carbs and proteins, and not on fatty food and oily stuff. More fruits maybe? Then, I have alot of things I wanna do, but I wonder how many can really be possibly done. I wanna learn a few stuff, heh: I don't mind taking up another language, heh, seriously. But it really will be tough. Cause I realised, my third language friends took 3 years already, cannot even speak very well with that language, I think it comes with lots of practise. Well I don't mind take up a few instruments. I'd like Piano, Guitar, probably settle for this two first la. Every thing's in the planning stage. Heh. Still got many many things I'd love to do, but can't think of all now. But I think only after week 7 then I'll be more free. NOW, I think tests and assignments will have to take priority.

I think many are busy and stressed at this point. There are many youths whom I begin to feel so distant from, just a week of so. Especially the guys. I think its good to keep sharing with one another our burdens, and our daily lives, keeping everyone accountable. To share, be concerned and be praying earnestly for one another. Com'on guys, its this time when we need most to be united as brothers and sisters in Christ and really show care and love of our Lord Jesus Christ.