the way Providence manages.

I trod this path with joy and glee
Knowing my Lord art with me
My hope rests in nothing but Thee
Thy love and spirit, made me free

But sin and shame came by
With pride and vainity alongside
"What thou want from me?"
"I will not give in to thee!"

My face looked up to Thee
Praying Thou will help me
But as I pray,
My wand'ring heart gave way

How I grieved His indwelling Spirit
When passion raged and there's no period
My heart groaned and moaned
As sin and vainity made it stone

My flesh enjoyed new companies
But my Spirit was filled with misery
Was I to live as a well-pleased king
But have my soul suffer the sting?

"O Lord what should I do?
Whatever Thou say I will be true
So long Thou not take "these" away
I'll stay faithful all the way"

"My son, this I cannot do
Nor have I advice for you
As I held back none from thee
I hope thou will too, for me"

"O Father, if thou would understand
I desire in Thy will to stand
There is none I seek but Thee
Only, only make me love Thee!"

"My Spirit is willing,
But my flesh is weak
Delighting in your will
And un-forsaking mine"

"O child, child of little faith
Let thy grip go and I'll sustain
Walk by faith [in me],
And not by thy sight"

"I am thy God,
Thou great God
You can hope in Me
And trust in Me"

"No good thing would I withhold from thee
For my child, art thee.
Would I keep thee from rejoicing?
Only, to give thee everlasting joy."

"Wait my child.
Patience my child."
"How long Lord must I wait?"
"Nevermind child, Trust me."

"I yearn to my Lord
But unable to dear God.
Confusion, raging passion
Please help switch my passion"

"My grace is sufficient for thee
I make it abound towards thee
If thou will surrrender thy will,
And rest completely in my will."

"You are my child.
Do I not have my best for you?
You are my sheep
Will I not take care of you?"

"Only turn thy eyes away from vainity
Set them on Him and on Me
I'll lighten thy heart
So from them can thou depart."

"Peace I give to you
Peace I leave with you.
Love I fill thee
Love I shower on thee."

"O the fullness of thy love!
The flowing of thy peace!
The filling of thy joy!
And fabulouso grace!"

"It satisfies my soul
It fills the vacuum.
It eases the pain
And lifts my Spirit."

"Father, if thou willing
Make me thine wholly
Purge me from my selfish desires
Sanctify me in Thy image"

"My will, my self,
My desire, my flesh,
My love, my joy,
I place on Thine altar."

"Send Thy fire
Thou great refining fire.
Burn my will as dross
So, I may cling to Thy cross"

"That my love for Thee
Preceeds all things.
And grow in Thee,
To love all things. "

Then all was silent.

My faith increased
As the world decreased
Christ's passion was revived
As my "passion" derived.

It didnt end there
I knew somehow
God was there
To teach me how

The pruning came
And I became
Shcoked, surprised and stumbled
But I remembered

My delight in His will.
To trust. To accept.
Not to rebel.
Not to reject.

Taking a step back
I was taken aback
God had it planned somehow
And I understood how

The testing that was to come
Was to refined my life
To bring my will
Under the subjection of His will

If separation from IT is best,
And God chooses the best.
I'm glad to proudly say,
I'll do all He says.

"Lord, so whether it be this or that
I pray only Thine will be set
Either way you lead
It'll forever be my keep."

"Your will cannot lead me
Where your grace will not keep me
Wherever Thou lead me
I know Thou art there "

"Lord, I'll follow.
Lord, I'll wait.
Lord, I'll trust you to lead
In the time you create."

Where should I go?
What should I be?
Lord I wil wait
Only on Thee.

And now, I look t'ward the narrow path
Though painful and tough
I glimpsed the end-
Love. Joy. Peace.