Week 7

Physical exhaustion.

Two words to describe exactly how I feel today.

But I sense of contentment, relief, and.. fullness. To know I am in my Father's love.

Check out this song: My Father's Love

Indeed, it was expected to be a stressful and tideous week, even though there were only 4 days. I hoped it would come and go quickly. One day down, 3 more to go. Today, allowed me to taste one of the most most physically burning and exhausting day I've had for this year's schooling day. 3 tests back to back, an extremely fitting package. Haa. Firstly it was Chinese test in which I spent about an hour or so studying, and reading through many pages of notes. But it was really easy, for the part which could be studied. But the last two cloze passages were killer. OHwells. Second was IHCore test, which saw me rushing through line after line without giving my hands a break. After time is up, my fingers were sore and red. Ouch~! Lastly, it was english composition, which was as good as a GP essay. Nothing seems much english except the fact we were writing english. But everyone were forced, of course imposed by ourselves, to study and memorise chucks of facts and figures on recent global tensions and conflicts, for our expository essay. This was the most powerful one la,1 hour of scribbling scribling non-stop and my fingers literally were burnt and couldnt hinge abit after the essay. Tomorrow's Geog, oh how I love humanities. More writing! Heh. Goodness. I've got B3 for physics. Ohwells.

I can't believe what I witnessed and heard. My friends were sulking and are so discontended when they got A2 for their test. My.. I feel that its really so different. In other classes, a B3 would send smiles on people's faces. Right here, an A2 brings misery. Hmmm. Its too competitive. I'm really not used to it. To be among this people, I am truly no doubt the ultimate slacker, even though I purpose myself to study hard. It is not as if I slack, but just that my working hard, is what they see as slack. Haa. Ohno. This people know two things: Study and Mug. So... I'm so amused. But I believe that such people are so in need of Someone to fill the emptiness in their souls, except for studying. But its tough. I cant seem to establish any close relationship with any of them. They are too obsessed with studing! Unlike my previous class, where we could talk about anything (other then studying) -hahaa- and I knew chances were there to talk to them. But right here, I not only have to try so hard to keep up with them, I cant seem to be able to work. However, I know I know that God has placed me here for a purpose and I'm going to be faithful and fulfill it.

Well, Sunday's message was thought provoking. And it really was good as how we are all facing strongholds unable to be torn down in our lives. During travelling home on Monday, while listening to the new album "A Strong Tower" namely song My Father's Love. But it was really a powerful time spent with God and it really prepared me for the week ahead. I truly am sustained by my Lord's grace. James 4 "He gives grace to the humble", and there is another verse which says, "he is also able to make grace abound towards you" something like that. And "My grace is sufficient for thee" has really been verses which kept close to me and helped me through these trying times.

I am seeking which way to take. Whether to train for track and field nationals this year and have my whole holiday and next 2 months eaten up by training under a coach who is really demanding. Or I can choose to give up this time, rest study do what I need to and wished to and train for next year's Xcountry. I'm just under coach's attacks and he is definitely not pleased with me, for many many reasons. Namely my absensce from training. And he wants an allout commitment to training if not he says he doesnt wanna train me. He claims he is only training people who aim for top 8 positions and I really think that he is looking down and discriminating the runners. Its an unfair and unrealistic time and place to train and I do not think I want to have a part of it until everything's cooled down. Everyone's angry with the loss at this year's Xcountry I guess. We have to get over it and move on.

Next week is OBS! Hahaha. Partly fun and exciting, partly another tiring week. Sadly Iam not going Sabbah. But Ubin. Nahh, it'll be something worth looking foward to. Then, the weekend after the next week which is week 9 will be Bangkok trip. Heh. Then coming up will be the Evangelistic meeting. There is some special youth meeting somtime in the first week of Hols too. Then JUNECAMP! Ahhhh. Long awaited. Goodness. Countdown countdown!!! (: