Monday blues.

Monday blues. I guess I got them.

I usually don't. But I'm actually feeling quite disturbed wth the thought of going back to school. But I guess I'm constantly encouraging myself in the Lord to do it for God. And it helps, alot. I'm disturbed not because I don't wanna attend school. Exams round the corner and I wont wanna miss school much. But I guess this week and last has been rather slack for me and I just felt that I havent done enough to make me feel at ease with going back to school. To put myself in comparison with my class, I know I lag behind alot alot. But I know what matters is doing my best for the Lord. I can be sure I will feel good about starting school anytime if I had been striving hard. Because simply knowing that we walk in the way of the Lord can assure us with peace. But however if laziness or sloth has been my ways and I know there may be punishment because of my own sin, it just doesn't feel right. I dunno whether I've been slacking or lazy, or I can justify myself as resting, but maybe I haven't done enough. Not enough to feel at ease at least.

Well, I guess I have to gear myself up for the upcoming weeks. I expect them to be quite xiong and hopefully I wont find myself falling short by not being as dilligent as I should. I have alot to catch up, even the basics for a few subjects I'm particularly weaker- math, biology, chemistry. Do pray for me, do pray for the rest as they study too. Its the time of the year when we just wack la. After this lots to anticipate and look foward to. I know I can have peace and joy to be in the will of the Lord, if I do my best with all that I have.

I'm thankful that the Lord spoke to me, through the message today, of the providence of our Lord. I guess its quite a thought to know that God actually chooses to plan our lives in detail, has everything planned and installed for us. When he actually does not have to do it. Well. Its a privilledge and honor, and a very comforting thought to know that God does that for us. I guess the only thing we ought to do is to be contented with wherever He leads. Its blessed to be in the will of the Lord, walking in His presence, enjoy and being blessed by His grace upon grace on us. To have everything planned out for us, we realise that there is actually nothing a christian should be worried about. But just don't fall out and into sin. If not everything is perfectly planned and simply awaits our trusting and obeying of His way.

The Lord has been to me a kind, gracious and loving HEAVENLY FATHER. This name has been a sweet melody in my ears as I remember Him as my Father. I thank Him He watches over each step of my way. I thank Him He is faithful, not matter which part of the wilderness I may have strayed to. Its a feeling of blessedness we christians enjoy- having a great and mighty, yet loving Father leading and paving our way. The providence of the Lord has been so true and real to me too. Being assured that the Lord will provide, both grace and strength for both our physical and spiritual walk. 2 Corinthians 9:8 "And God is able to make all grace abound toward you that having all sufficiency, you may have an abundance for every good work" has been the continual thought and meditation of my heart.

Well. I guess there is still able to lethargy at the back of my mind. But I'm assured and encouraged even as I reflect on the providence and grace of my Lord.

But this week has been a good week of rest, of thinking and reflections. Many things to be put aside and to be patient and to trust God to lead and work out. In the end, I'm assured that the Lord is GREAT and I can trust Him and wait on Him.

I'd to leave some notes, havent done so for some time. If you people do pop by..

A levels ( MY sis, Xiang, Joo, Cheryl, Van )
O levels ( Darren, Beng, Ivan, Eunice, Oswald, Yixuan, Tyron, Teresa)
PSLE ( MY bro, Danny and Sebestian)

Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct[a] your paths.

Mass note (haha): Acknowledge Him in all your ways, He shall direct your paths. Its blessed to know we can walk in the ways of God and be at perfect peace, only be dilligent and do your best, be assured God gives the best.