School Reopens

Finally..got round to squeeze in sometime to share! It will be a quick one, promise, ha..have to go for run soon! Ohwells.

Well.. First week of school jus went pass, and it was quite a breeze, as in quite fast. I'd say that though its only the first week, and supposedly everything supposed to be at its minimum, I'm quite stressed already! Well, not really stressed but quite tired and worn out, and plus the pressure that can and will be building up if I fail to trust in my Lord. Tiring week it has been, finally after two months break come back to study from 8am to 4pm, then continue to train and run after school and reach home probably at 7plus 8. After dinner and homework I'll jus plonk right into bed la pls! And I really did.. By the Lord's grace I survived the first week! Still tired.. Haa. But I'm very thankful that God has been REEEEALLY good. Great is His faithfulness each day! I never cease to find the peace, joy and rest I truly and desperately needed, in Christ! I'm quite delighted that I started well in the first week. I paid attention to every single lesson, reminding myself not to slacken or give anything less than 100% to the Lord. I am able to complete every single assignment given to me, till now. I thank Him, by His grace and strength! But really.. I feel, and can imagine that this year would really not be easy, be it academically and cca-wise, and many many other things.

I guess the year will be quite trying for me. Many times through the week I feel so discouraged and down and low because of the stress and pressure that I face. Yet each time God was there to lift me up.. His Spirit was promised to be my Comforter, and He has been. God's Word speaks and encourages me every time it is revealed to my heart. Guess I can share a couple of burdens I have, and ask that you would keep me in prayer. I need His grace and strength to be faithful in wherever He sends. Firstly is really my studies. Being in the top class, I know for a certainty I cannot and am not as good as many of my classmates. Sometimes I feel quite inferior even. But I am trusting the Lord that if I would do my best, just my best I shouldnt have to worry, even whatever the outcome may be. I know year 4 is quite demanding, and I have to do well to be able to have larger range of choices and priority in scholarships and stuff. Yet, let not my desire rule my heart, let His will rule mine. Secondly is my running, haa, as expected. I do not doubt God's will for me.. But I'm quite wearing out and tiring out after so much that I've been thru.. And for it, I also just want to do my best.. Thirdly, I have to confess these are my desires that I so badly want, yet being withheld, I can only trust my Lord that in His time these things will be freely given. I want to be faithful as long as I was meant to be so. My desires this year is really June Camp, Youth Camp, hopefully Childrens Camp if I can serve. Then there are so many youth activities lined up. But.. there are really so many hinderances that can come in the way that I have only, to yield my will to my Father that I may have peace. For He said not to worry about tomorrow. My trainings will definitely root out possibilities for some of them. My dad's disapproval may be a major hinderance. Even my overseas exchange probably at the end of the year may cancel out any chance of attending any camp! Its really trying.. I really pray God will grant these desires of my heart. But I'm willing, by His grace to submit, trust and obey. For His way indeed is perfect! It has not been easy.. even when I think of how much I desire to serve the Lord in other ministries. So many desires.. Unfulfilled desires, I pray, can and will only sanctify and refine my life for my Lord! Much more.. Many more burdens weighing down on my heart whenever I think of them. But truly, God never cease to lift me out of them if I would just cast them onto Him. God is indeed, my Song in the night!

Today had a good time hanging out, fellowshipping with the youth guys at beng's house. I'm glad the Lord continue to work and grow our youths, and the ministry. I just pray God will continue to direct and lead us in the year ahead.

Well.. I really have to go. Tata..