Haha, time for an update..!

Well, it has been really busy for me since school started again, its gonna be worse for the next few weeks as nationals cross draws nearer and as the no of tests and assignment piles up. the busy feeling.. is not something foreign to me I guess but its not something i enjoy actually. Cos it really saps away alot of my energy. Then again, i still have to make a decision whether to continue training after cross country nationals or stop, once and for all. the thing is I feel i'm beginning to "bond" with the team, (at such a time!) and to be honest, i wouldnt mind continue training. But then i know fully that becos running is so time consuming, i would be draining myself of the time and energy i'm feeling desperately lacking of now. And i wouldnt noe if I would be able to endure for another season. I do enjoy the feeling of being free and easy you noe.
Anw, at such times when it isnt trying emotionally but very much physically and mentally as well as spiritually, its also the time when i feel my faith starts to be shaken and what i deeply and truly believe spring out as the basis of my everyday decisions. REAL questions about whether i would choose the world and its pleasures or Christ my Lord surfaces every now and then as i reflect on how easily influenced i am by the world. the politically correct answer i would give is of cos Christ my Savior. but then, its not that simple, because when it comes down to the very reality of life, its a struggling decision to make. There are certainly areas where i could choose the world and yet not appear spiritually deficient. but then, i know i am still accountable to God. so, pressumptousness aside, it IS a struggle that i've faced the year before, two years before, in fact every now and then ever since I started to take my faith seriously. i really wonder when i would be able to exclaim like Paul did, "for what things for gained to me, these i have counted lost for Christ. yet indeed i also count all things loss, for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, and count them as dung, that i may win Christ." yet if I were to walk this narrow way, oh how I need grace and strength from Him to do so.