I spent the whole night practicing guitar cords as well as hymns, and even though I didn't do anything academically productive, I think I'm quite satisfied with the way I spent my evening. (: I'm hoping to become better acquainted with the bar chords as well as the transition, and soon I'll be able to play songs without looking at song books. But really, its quite nice to just play the chords slowly and just sing along with the guitar accompaniment.

And also, I think I'm falling ill. Having a sore throat and quite a bad flu. And I know the reason behind it. Ha.. I am stuffing myself with oiling and fried food, not purposely but unconsciously. Like BK, Macs, Fried oily stuff from our canteen. Urgh! But actually I wont mind a one day break from school. It has been a busy week I should say, but even though I'm in school I know my heart's often not in the lesson itself. So I really hope to take a few days to quieten down a bit and find rest in the Lord. Ha, see how tomorrow when I wake up.


Today's devotion encouraged me greatly. I've been bowing down to "idols" in my own life, people that have taken God's place in my heart and I pray God dethrone them and be Lord of my life.

Psalms 81
Hear, O my people, and I will testify unto thee: O Israel, if thou wilt hearken unto me; There shall no strange god be in thee; neither shalt thou worship any strange god. I am the LORD thy God, which brought thee out of the land of Egypt: open thy mouth wide, and I will fill it.

"Open thy mouth wide, and I will fill it" It struck me to think that God desires to satisfy us, and more often than not, His presence is sufficient to satisfy. It feels as though God was telling me, "Why are you looking elsewhere for fulfillment and joy, I and the LORD thy God, I shall satisfy you!" That is really great encouragement, but I really wanna translate it to my actions and thoughts.

I'm feeling mixed. Should I be concerned for you or myself? 1 Corinthians 13 tells me it cant be myself, for charity is not self-seeking but selfless. And very patient. I really want it to be so, cos its ideal and it model's Christ love, but I know many a times I let my emotions get the better of me. So I really just hope that you're okay. I never wanted anything, but just to get to know you better. But I respect whatever decision you stand firm on, cos I admire too your convictions. Each day I pray and ask God to take control, I am hoping, trusting that He will make all things beautiful in His time.