Ahh, peace! Lol.

Anyway thanks Sisjo for the article, I shall be more mindful abt what I blog about! Haha.

Today Psalsm 108:12-13 confronted me after a long period of time. The posts I have about independence from man and dependence on God werent hypocrtical. I feel guilty that I havent been practising what I have learnt before. The Psalm read,

"Give us help from trouble, For the help of man is useless. Through God we will do valiantly, For it is He who shall tread down our enemies"

Now its more difficult to practice it cos I found myself such a safe and comfortable haven- a group of friends who are there so often for me and whom I've grown close to. Aye I know I dun have to NOT close to them but I know I have to put my whole dependence on God and not on man. Its not a question of insecurity, its a question of where does my faith lies.


I've realise that I have indeed forsaken the "fountains of living water" for "broken cisterns that can hold no water". Its a shame and I know. I'm not refering to anyone or anything. Its just that I have not been seeking the Lord and.. guess nothing else really can satisfy but Him? I havent experienced it right now, but its a truth I know and we know. I probably dun wanna wait until the truth hits hard upon me when something bad happens to realise that. I shouldnt give up all that I've learnt before for a moment's folly.


I'm still feeling very very safe happy glad and contented with friends in school (zak, del, xiu, nick longyi km), and yes, darren (: talking to him kinda make me realise that at least there is one more soul in church that cares and available. I feel that I shouldnt be angsty abt the situation in church. Feel that its something not many people, but those on the outskirts can feel? But its not something that should be discussed on the blog. I love the church and I know the church shows great love for the flock. People probably are just busy la huh. But I certainly think we can do much better than what we have been doing. If we have to dig deep to find love and if its not a distinctive quality that shines forth, something probably is wrong. But yes, our church is in the hands of God and I'm glad. // Haha all the statements have a"but" behind I realised.


Studies wise. Argh I give up! I havent been studying. Okay thats an overstatement. I've mugged real hard for maths. But I think I'm still gonna fail. Boo. The test was crazy. But I havent started for promos. Sigh. Why does it seem so stressful when I think of it. But if I dont I'm contented with not studying. I'm actually quite quite sure i can finish studying syallbus in 3 weeks tops? But why does it seem that EVERYBODY is paranoid abt it. I finished studying for my sec 4 EOY in three to four weeks la! It covers sec 3 plus sec 4 work leh. Now, its just.. crazy la. So A levels we have to start studying in January isit. Siaos. JC life is being sucked up by studies and I dun like it. I think its overemphasized.


I wanna go and rest. Today's shopping was in vain, cos I still didnt manage to get my bag. Now I covet for a pair of shoes. Lol. Wasted.

Today was an interesting day. I went for consultation for braces at National Dental Centre. I made two interesting discoveries. First I had two extra teeth in my lower gums. Hhaha its hidden beneath. The dentist said I was special, LOL. But I gues it means I have to surgecally remove it if it obstructs the braces. Then second was that my lower jaw was slightly behind my upper jaw. And to correct it I need to go through a major jaw sugery. *Gasps* I said I don't mind but mom and dad says no. Haha. Now I realise the reason why I can have those big wide smiles. Hahahaha. But it was quite a fun visit to the dentist.

Ahh. YAY! I didnt emo today!! ((: