Busy, but w/o excuse.
I've been busy these few days for whatever reason I don't really understand. But I guess time flies past me real quickly, and I've been feeling tired and sleeping early. But the busyness probably explains why I'm less emo these few days. Uh, actually maybe not. Think God's grace has been sustaining me and I've been learning to trust Him- really to simply trust Him! :D
I think I'm busy with studies but I'm not exactly studying. Haha, ironic. But generally, I've not been doing work, but I've been understanding much about the different subjects and have not been too blur about them, except bio. I trained/stayed back to play soccer for monday and wednesday and spent an unsually great amount of time with the cross team these days. Ha. Think they are a group of friends in school I feel pretty comfortable with. After all the guys I've known since sec 1, and the girls are.. pretty nice and friendly. The main reason why I wouldnt consider agreeing to return to train for Cross next year is the commitment I'm gonna make if I agree. Honestly, I wouldnt mind going down for training three times a week while I'm free now. But when I am busy with school work, church, ministry, etc.. I think training takes less a priority and I must give it up. Hence its such a difficult decision to make. Monday I kinda stayed back for soccer. Today I stayed to do my first 5km since ages. I feel pretty fit, except maybe the stamina part and tight muscles part. Haha. Anw, I have no idea why I talk so much these days.. and am more daring to open up and share my life with people. But, its good la I guess.
To half-my-classmates who read my blog w/o me knowing, haha, you can appear and acknowledge by commenting or something. Lol. But even if they do read my blog, guess more than half of them are bored to death haha.
Why busy yet without excuse? Cos I feel that in the course of struggling and overcoming my personal problems I've kinda neglected my ministry in church once again with the youths. Its so much more difficult to reach out to the youths in church then my friends in school I feel, I dunno why. But I feel God has given me many opportunities to witness and share God's love and truth with my schoolmates these days, and I feel at ease telling them all they wanna know. And I'm really excited to see them come to know and trust the Savior- after all they're making the choice of their life by doing so! But on the other hand, I feel that for church youths they are more.. sensitive and reserved I feel and sometimes its even difficult to break the ice, must less talk about deeper stuff.
Gossiping is a bad habit la, seriously. I cant say that I have never been involved in them. Cos I tell you, hwachong is really a place where gossips are as abundant as the air we breathe! Lol. Maybe cos of nanyang girls, x) and also the presence of nicholas foo. :D But aye, I shall take things with a pinch of salt and not throw myself into such situations. Cos I realise I leave the conversations very unedified and at times proud and self-centered. Ohwell. Anyway, its scary to think of what others ARE gossiping about you anyway so better not be one who gossips lest you be one they talk about.
More effort into studies? Yeah time to start gearing up for promos, I feel. I need a 2.6 in order to get my H3 next year! But I think my academics are kinda flying pass me now. So I have to stop them from flying pass me? Lol.
Aye okay, I've continually been impatient. And I desperately need to trust Him and not doubt by thinking too much. But generally, I'm glad that alls well now and.. perhaps we can all move on! (:
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