Guys, you've gotta see my adorable niece at this blog. HAHA. I wanna be a good uncle to her (:

Haha darren you got me into the "subset" truama, get me out of it! Lol. not truama I guess, but aye I'm still thinking so much about it and its getting me affected. Its.. just really sian? Nvm, you wont FULLY understand it either. I'm not gonna REALLY say or talk abt it, I'm just gonna keep trusting and hoping...for myself to see the light soon. Ha.

Today was the most productive day so far, yay! Haha two chapters of bio plus 1 chapter of chem. LOL :D But at the rate I'm going, its still too slow. Today I talked less, less noise, more contemplative. Today I've realised I need to try quite hard to please my friends and meet their expectations; like I get extremely worried if I'll upset them because of insensitivity and negligience. Its taxing for me. Thats why I guess, doing whats pleasing to God is just most important in the end. Life cannot just revolve around self and men.

Today's encouragement:


I saw the verse this way. Be strong! But not in self, not in vain hope, not in people. Be strong, be encouraged, stand strong, live strong, in the Lord and in the power of God's might. This verse alone came across quite powerfully.

Haha, I wish people around me could stop talking to me about things I'm trying to forget. I really mean it generally. Not that people who ARE talking abt things would read my blog and see this BUT, argh.. I need more than my own strength and discipline to submit it all into His control. I'm not angry, I'm just.. exasperated. But today the Bible taught me that I do not wrestle merely against flesh and blood, but against a spiritual host of darkness and principalities, and the wiles of the devil. It reminded me that they didnt happen as merely coincidental, but.. really.. what needs to be done is to take up the shield of faith to quench all the fiery darts of the evil one. To be able to withstand in this evil day, and having done all, to stand firm by taking up the whole armour of God.

Ha, so much talk nowadays, so little real action. Somehow I feel nowadays that its abit.. weird feeling to keep saying the RIGHT stuff over and over again without doing it. Well, its nothing wrong with saying what you feel convicted about but all the fluffy and beauty talk aside, ones gotta get down to practical christian living- living the Christian life on ground zero where you find youself daily. Its easy being a christian amongst christian friends and in the church, to the point of being dependent on an outward external pressure to keep you in check. But a life sanctified from within, a Christ-like life flows out from within, not without.