Not I, But Christ

I'm so glad I'm 60% through with me promos, really. But the next two subjects are the two I am least confident in, so pray I will be able to get down to studying the next few days and pull through maths and bio. I'm really looking forward to days after promos, not merely for the fun, but for the peace and respite that I can have from academics. Today after chem paper, it almost felt like I could breathe a sigh of relief cos my next paper is two days away. But after feeling lofty for a while, its time to get my feet back on the ground and face reality- I'm not prepared for both papers.

I spent today not touching anything to do with academics. I don't really regret it, I felt it was a rather well deserved break after like 5 straight days of mugging. I spent time with family and friends, as well as a little time reflecting and pondering about the deeper stuff in life. HA, and I've realised I have been very superficial lately. Spending time with family is good, especially on MAF itself. Dinner with my aunt's family at stadium waterfront jumbo seafood was rather nice. Thoroughly enjoyed it. Just thankful to know that there are people who can be there for me still. Erm, my aunt actually asked my dad to go to her church this sunday for a talk on our faith; I felt rather ashamed, cos he's my dad and I've actually thought I have given up hope trying to witness to him. Which I feel is reeeeally bad of me. And my cousin who's just primary 4 could tell me that she doesn't want the Lord to come yet cos her "Uncle Khoon", my dad, has not accepted Jesus. I thought that was really sweet, and more imptly, a serious reminder for me. I've really been focusing my life on very much superficial stuff, and the exams arent really helping.

I'm glad I havent been sad recently. Exam's probably took my mind off many emotional issues but I feel its because I have been quite strong about many issues- thanks for His grace. Its good this way I think.

Oh, I actually attempted a philosophical question for my GP essay! Lol. I don't think I will do very well for it. Heh. "The most important question in life cannot be answered by science" Do you agree? HAHA. I was compelled to write this essay even though I know I wont do very well for it. But its unconventional for me to do so, considering that I have always been safe with my choice of questions. BUT, its worth a try, and not that GP is really impt to me now anyway.


I have a deep burden in my heart now and I hope I will do something about it. I hope the people I love and care for will come to understand and know the love of God and that Jesus indeed is the way, the truth and the life. Aye. Pray!