Yay! Left one paper. And, I dun feel like studying for it. HAHA. Honestly, I'm still at the stage of comprehending whats in the lecture notes not even close to the memorising part or the practicing part. Ohwells. I'll be contented with a D for bio. :/

I like Ave Maria by Franz Schubert alot. I think I'm am falling in love.. with operas/musicals, or in general terms music, nice soothing music. Perhaps I am still more inclined towards music than I am towards sports. Ha. Without the fitness that I used to have, I think I kinda suck at sports now.. I enjoy music alot more than I enjoy sports. Though I do derive satisfaction from the results of sports, not the process. Heh. But anywy as I was saying, I wish I could take up italian so I could fully comphrehend italian operas and not allow its essence to be lost in translation. I wanna watch Turandot by Giacomo Puccini from which we get the song Nessun Dorma; and Les Miserables, I wanna watch it live in.. London. Haha. I miss that Italian opera performance I was involved in during primary 5. And many many more. Lol, okay I dunno why I am ranting all these.

I really have no post-exam plans. (the thought of PW kinda irks me too). I just wanna relax and chill and sleep and I dunno. It seems as though there are many many things I wanna do but nothing really concrete. Not planning to go out except to shop a little. Probably hone abit of my soccer skills. Start training to burn fats and improve my fitness. Practice and try to improve my guitar. Oh, yeah read.. I dunno read cos I havent picked up a book for ages. Uh, watch operas and musicals HAHA. But then again I need to stop doing stuff alone cos I needa catch up with people. Haha, abit sad cos dunno whether there are still people to catch up with or maybe I'll just needa be contented w my group of friends now? Eh eh, also also got quite alot stuff to settle, with God, with friends, with.. coach/teacher. HAHA.

I need to regain my ability to become indifferent/unaffected by people's comments. Most of the time it kinda hurts my pride and I feel really bad about it. Ah, thats why I shouldnt be saying stuff about people cos its quite painful to be a victim of... judgements. But anyway I'm talking about very superficial stuff here, not those deep deep ones. So I'm not like terribly affected.

I am a little apprehensive about gonna having spend more time with church friends after exams. It isnt an illegitimate fear cos I'm thought through it quite abit. Firstly and most importantly, I do have issues I have not settled with God and I dun have His peace yet. Secondly, I feel very very distant from every single one in chuch, maybe except darren (whom I've neglected too cos of exams). It'll be pretty awkward and quite difficult to hope to assimilate back. Thirdly, I've to admit I've changed alot and I dunno whether I'm ready to go back to serve. Fourthly, I am quite scared of many of those eyes that will pierce through me probably cos of my own conscience as well as the fact that every single word and action I've said and done I'll be judged. And also lastly, I'm having so many problems with people in church. Heh, through all my backsliding the past years, this one's the worst! It has hit me the hardest and I'm almost giving up hope of getting back on my feet. I hope I'm not trying to make people sympathize with my dilemna; I know I brought it upon myself. But I'm in such a fixed it may explain my behaviours I may have. I ought to clarify that its no one but my own fault that I'm in such a state.

HAHA, still I know life isnt that bad. Anyway i'm not too affected by it, I'm just not as comfortable as I was before. Let me get though bio first? Then i'll talk more.

Anyway 1 full day of my weekend would be consumed by Uncle Puishang and Sis Angelyn's wedding, which really leaves me less than one day to finish bio. :/ But well, for a once-in-a-lifetime wedding, i'm quite okay with it.

Ahhh.. time to go back to study.