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I am not very happy/satisfied with today's match actually. I'm not happy about it because I felt that there was quite a lack of sportsmanship on the field. Heh take for instance then when there was a man down on the field and the play carried on even though people were aware of it. And people shouldn't play down the scoreline especially when they know whats the score; they dun mind announcing wrong results. And many comments flew everywhere in the pitch. Ha. I just kept quiet then. I'm not too concerned about the score anyway. The disparity in today's score was too great, than to be disturbed by, of course understandable when the adults have a lack of players. But even so, unsportsmanlike behavior today made it a little sour for me. I am not satisfied with the game too because I felt I wasted many chances that ought to be converted. Furthermore, the second half's attack shouldnt have been laxed just because we ought to pass. I always believe in playing hard upfield but I cant do that when I'm always told to drop or play back. Would it be quite different if we arent playing the adults today? Maybe not so. I believe we have a pretty strong defence and the attack looks positively good. Only the next serious match will tell, perhaps.

Haha enough of soccer! It feels so weird trying to explain today's match in such a serious tone but.. the content has to tally with the tone anyway.

Honestly, is everyday so difficult to get by? I don't think so. In fact apart from the times I allow myself to be emotionally affected I think life generally isnt that bad for me. I am happy for good results, happy for fitness, glad for friends and family and quite contented. Most importantly, I want to find the joy that I once had in my Lord. I allowed myself to lose all the joy and peace I can have in Him just because people are mean or un-nice but.. why should this be the case. Have I not learnt when God said, "Put not thy trust in princes nor the sons of man, for the help of man is useless". Truly as the hymn goes, "Yet how rich is my condition; God and heav'n are still my own" It truly is enough to have Jesus, and thats where I wanna be found, really.