Everyone has their struggles in life, but who understands mine? Everyday I'm searching for reasons for me to hang in there and not give up. Everytime its getting bleaker than before. I wish I had the time machine and I could travel back time. Perhaps 5 years back. And I wonder how much of my life I'm gonna change if I had the opportunity to do so. But one year back would be good because life now seriously sucks.

Am I really oblivious to the fact that there are a thousand and one reading this blog of mine? Ha. Sometimes I really am but I don't really have that much energy to think of whether what I say will offend anyone anymore. Its too tiring for me to do that. I just wanna say what I wanna say.

Whats the use of trying when it all ends up in failure and rejection again? It feels like I'm increasingly losing part of my old life and gaining another part of a new life.

Anyway my results are bad so far. Hopefully ACC now would become ABC after moderation. H3 is a distant reality.