Forsake all, bear the Cross
Saturday, October 6
Whew!The first post-exam week has quickly past. And I'm quite happy to spend it the way I did.
Let's start with Monday. After Bio paper, we played soccer for close to an hour under the blazing sun. Thats when I realised my fitness seriously CMI. Then, I stayed around in school with some friends, then went to the Geylang streetmarket cos somebody had no where to go.. Lol. Yay! But I ate ramly burger, thats all I remembered!
Tuesday, I felt like the dumbest guy on earth cos I went to school the earliest I did before, cos my dad sent me. I reached school at 630 and I thought I only had about an hour to finish studying for Bio Mock SPA. But turns out my paper was at 1pm. :/ :/ :/ HAHA. So I had goodness knows how much time spent wandering around in school. Then I had to make a special trip down to near AJC for some reason.. and managed to study abit after returning school. Played soccer, again. This time was with most of the trackers and j2s and a few soccer players. I knew I didnt play well cos I only managed to score a goal :/ But nonetheless, glad to sweat it out again. Then.. hung around in school for awhile again before going home.
Wednesday I reached school at 10. Attended some briefing and lecture on PW before... playing soccer again! HAHA. This time street. Played abit better cos fitness was relatively better. Then the did the Cross board in school with the girls team..
Thursday was sabbaticals. I attended this course I never expected myself to choose.. because some people needed company, rights? :p I went for a film-making course at liang seah road. It turned out better than I expected? At least know I know how to operate a video camera, shoot video, plan shots and splice the video clips into a video with music subtitles and all. Haha. Maybe I'll be the next Royston Tan- I wish. This course took about 14 hours of my Thursday and Friday. Maybe I should post our video on youtube and link it to this blog. HA HA.
After sabbaticals, we finally had our long-planned, ZDJ outing. :) Hahaha. Aiya in fact it was not as if we never go out together- we spent so much time together in school!! Just that this outing was official. Haha. The girls spent close to an hour in the toilet doing their make-up in town. HA HA. Maybe not so long, 45mins? x) We managed to get Del's flip flops and pencil case, zak's heels, and I got san's present. So it was.. productive? We went to Marina Sq Secret Recipe for dinner before going to Raffles city for Ben and Jerry's. So we practically swept the whole orchard road down to suntec. Haha. Aye, here are just SOME of the photos we took.
Del with her "smile" HAHA
Del -> half of screenMe and Zak -> another half screen
:D Lol.
Zak acting cute, Me nua-ing (:
HA. HA.
Next week would be the week we will start to receive back our papers. OH NO. Seriously ggbbq. Haha. Let's hope for the best! Whether or not I get my h3.. its okay. I'm sure it is. :)
Now to the more serious stuff.
Now to the more serious stuff.
"Depth of mercy, can there be, mercy still reserved for me?"
I'm gonna put all the issues I have aside for once, and focus on repentance and renewal. I'm not gonna let it bug me nor am I gonna seek help from anyone else. Perhaps I need more time alone than anything else. I know its not gonna be about me trying to find favor in His sight once again. I've tried it too many times and failed too many times. I just need to be completely dependent on Him for grace in hour of temptation, for wisdom to make decisions, for love when there is selfishness and anger. As the life I once lived before seems drastically different from the life I am living now, so would the living I am seeking be drastically different from the life I am living now. Somehow I feel that this period has opened my eyes to many different things and perhaps if I do repent and begin to walk uprightly again, would be beneficial and helpful in the way I see things henceforth. I do not think I am as simplistic as I used to be about many things yet I hope not to become too judgemental because of that. Also, I feel I've learnt not to too depedent on my own strength in my spiritual pursuit because when it fails, all crumbles quickly. Just like the parable about the wise and foolish man who builds their house on different foundations.
"If anyone desires to come after Me, let him forsake his all, take up his cross and follow Me"
Jesus, I my cross have taken
All to leave and follow Thee
Destitute, despised forsaken
Thou from hence my all shall be.
All to leave and follow Thee
Destitute, despised forsaken
Thou from hence my all shall be.
