It feels good after today's loooooong run. Haha. Tiring, yet refreshing! I ran from my house at lucky heights to my old house in tg rhu before running back. Hmm, I really kinda miss my old place now that I returned for the first time since I moved out. Its really quite a beautiful place especially during the evenings with the cool evening breeze and all. But yes, I am actually quite surprised I survived long run alone haha, that perhaps shows an increased level of discipline.. lol.

Well, today church was fine. Strange I find, that when in the flesh, love is so selfish to the point that it results in animosity and envy and strife. Thus it feels extremely uncomfortable to try to love because it doesn't get reciprocated in anyway. But to love, when God's spirit pours our His love into our hearts, unity and peace seems to be the desired outcome. Yet everything is still in the contemplation level, and has not yet sinked into the heart that has been filled with God's love to be practiced out in deed.


God blessed my heart with this hymn because I was reminded of how it felt like to be walking closely with Christ and truly, the experience was a "more than friend or life to me". It was only yesterday night that I began to contemplate on who I can really call my close friend or rather, who considers me to be a dear friend. Yes, I know thinking about such things only bring sorrow and discouragement. But then I thought back on then when I need not worry about such issues- and it was when Jesus stuck closer to me than a brother or a very best friend. "Fool", some would say, to consider One who you haven't seen to be your closest Friend. But I realised it is never foolish to have Jesus be your closest aide for Romans 8:31 tells us, "If God is for us, who can be against us". To walk closely with God, one would be able to proclaim confidently, "there is none upon earth I desire beside Thee". Well, to be honest, its so easier said than done. There are certainly hindrances that will keep us from saying and living, "Lord, You're All I Need". I believe one major difficulty would be peer pressure. It feels weird when you know that people around you have friends that they can cuddle and treasure while you seemingly have none. Then comes the question, who do you first run to when you encounter a problem? God or friends? Hmm. Perhaps another obstacle would be the bitter feeling of loneliness. Emotions are a rather potent element of humans that sometimes we have most difficulty controlling and the pain of loneliness, urgh, some can hardly bear it. Yet if we would pour out our hearts to Him and enter into the sanctuary of God, this we would behold:


God be merciful and teach US to wholly depend on Him, yes, Him alone.


God indeed demonstrated love towards us in that while we were sinners, Christ died for us. God's love was not only deep and penetrating as the verses above suggests, his love was pure and unselfish. So unselfish indeed. God is love: Christ suffers long (very patient indeed) Christ's love is kind; Christ's love does not envy; Christ's love does not parade itself (very humble) and is not puffed up. Christ does not behave rudely and yes, Christ's love did not allow Him to seek His own ("Not my will but Thine be done") Christ loved and was never provoked. Christ thinketh no evil towards us. Christ's love was in his holiness and thus rejects sin and rejoices in truth. Christ has born and indeed bears all for us (on that cruel cross) Christ's love believes and hopes all things (He saved us! wretched sinners- predestined us, called us, justified us and glorified us) And Christ's love indeed endureth all things. It is a wonder that not only was the extent of God's love great, His love was completely selfless and perfect! Who can indeed comprehend the love of God?

Such love warrants much much more than I have been giving and living. Aye, more love to Thee O Christ, more love to Thee.


To be spiritually minded is life and peace.. ah. Life becomes more simple when all I seek is You.